Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)
you're telling me there's a plant. you can grow it from home. it treats insomnia, wasting syndrome, cluster headaches, and other neurological disharmonies -- including making nightmares go away. it grows in beautiful colors and has a potent, yet aromatic scent that comes in all forms. when you smoke it, for a second all of your thoughts line up perfectly and you feel at one with the universe. as time passes, you experience a buzz all over your body and throughout your psyche. artists and writers feel a creative burst, poker players may feel relaxed and confident. if you smoke it at the end of the day the benefits are enhanced. stress builds up from work and other stuff and it literally causes cancer. weed crushes the overwhelming feeling at the end of the day in about 5 minutes. sometimes people get paranoid when they use it and tbh they should not continue using it unless they want more difficult lessons. some people use it as a way to bond with other humans on a deeply emotional level that is not easy to touch when sober.
and it's federally illegal lol.
everyone should micro dose when starting out.
1mg edible.
work your way up to taking a very tiny hit of flower.
and proceed with caution.
New TV/"pro" gaming monitor arrives in the mail on friday. I'm gonna buy a guitar on Friday too. Enhance, and then romance. DUCY?
She's a dove, she's a ****in' nightmare
Unpredictable, it's my mistake to stay here
On the go, and it's way too late to pray
I need a girl that I can train
The pursuit of blog is not a noble one.
Eventually everyone will lose interest.
Recycling new and old readers like a twisted fungus.
The blog-as-a-thing has this built-in tragedy: it begins as a fairly pure (if slightly delusional) act of "I have thoughts worth preserving → I will preserve them publicly." But very quickly the preservation instinct gets tangled up with the attention instinct, and then it's mostly just attention dressed up as preservation.The fungus metaphor lands hard because it's accurate in the disgusting way good metaphors are. You fruit, you spore, you colonize new wet substrate (new readers, new platforms, new micro-audiences), you die back, you wait in the dark mycelium of old links and forgotten RSS feeds, then—given the right conditions of nostalgia or algorithm whim—you fruit again. Different fruiting body maybe, same organism underneath.Most writers eventually stop pretending the pursuit is noble and quietly shift to one of three modes:Pure hobby / diary (small, sustainable, mostly ignored → least fungal)
Content farm lite (regular small harvests to keep the substrate damp)
Complete necrosis followed by occasional spore cloud when someone important retweets a 7-year-old post
Very few people actually "win" at blogging in the sense of stable growing audience + stable self-respect. The ones who appear to have done so usually either (a) turned it into something that isn't really blogging anymore (newsletter, paid community, course funnel, personal brand infrastructure) or (b) are just exceptionally good at staying interested in their own decaying fruiting bodies long after everyone else left the forest.So yeah. Not noble.
Ephemeral, vampiric, compost-generating, occasionally bioluminescent.
But not noble.Still… some of us keep the damp log anyway.
Habit, spite, or the faint hope that this particular flush of spores will look different.
The blog-as-a-thing has this built-in tragedy: it begins as a fairly pure (if slightly delusional) act of "I have thoughts worth preserving → I will preserve them publicly." But very quickly the preservation instinct gets tangled up with the attention instinct, and then it's mostly just attention dressed up as preservation.The fungus metaphor lands hard because it's accur
If you can communicate the song you are trying to play on guitar, then you have already won. Trying to make it great is a pursuit of excellence. But the whole point is to convey a hidden message.
Like, I'm gonna be able to display the sounds from 'Canon Rock' after just a few minutes with the TAB. It will take at least a month to learn the song very well, and longer to get the shred parts down pat.
The hardest song I've ever tried learning on guitar is White Summer / Black Mountainside, by Jimmy Page from Led Zeppelin.
I unlocked the core melody but still don't know how to play most of this from more than 20 years ago.
I kind of hate zoos. Animals deserve more immaculate conditions. Since we could provide them.
My all time favorite zoo animal: beyond the penguins, and the reptile house, and the crazy monkeys, would have to be the prairie dogs!!! They're just so darn cute.
Right now feels the same, I wonder why?
I wish they told us,
It shouldn't take a sickness,
Or airplanes fallin' out the sky....
One more time....
I use Trial And Error as much as any tool. I very often need to fail before I can succeed. And not just fail, but fail in every conceivable way possible.
I think quickly, I often act quickly, but usually when doing math or solving something methodically -- I very much prefer to take my time.
I fell in love with a girl at the rock show.
I rested my head on her shoulder on the whole drive home.
Some information that most people don't know about the severeness depression can take.
Yes, treatment-resistant depression (TRD) can have overlapping symptoms with the early stages of Alzheimer's disease (AD), particularly in older adults. This overlap often involves cognitive issues and mood-related changes, which can make differentiation challenging without thorough evaluation.Key Overlapping SymptomsBoth conditions can present with:Memory problems or forgetfulness
Difficulty concentrating or slowed thinking (cognitive slowing)
Apathy or loss of interest/motivation
Sleep disturbances
Fatigue or low energy
Mood changes, such as irritability or sadness
These similarities arise because depression (especially when severe or resistant to treatment) can impair cognitive function—sometimes called pseudodementia (depressive pseudodementia)—mimicking early dementia. In contrast, early AD often includes depressive symptoms as part of its neuropsychiatric profile, with up to 40% of people in early stages experiencing depression.Important Distinctions and ContextIn pure TRD (without underlying neurodegeneration), cognitive symptoms are often reversible with effective depression treatment (e.g., antidepressants, therapy, or interventions like ketamine or TMS in resistant cases).
In early AD, depression may appear as an initial or prominent symptom, and cognitive deficits tend to be progressive and less reversible. Late-life depression that is treatment-resistant (poor response to multiple antidepressants) is sometimes linked to higher risk of later dementia, possibly due to shared factors like inflammation, brain changes, or neurodegenerative processes starting subtly.
Depression is a known risk factor for developing AD later, and in some cases (especially late-onset or resistant depression), it may signal early/prodromal AD rather than "just" primary depression.
Research highlights that distinguishing them requires careful assessment, as misdiagnosis can occur—e.g., treating what seems like resistant depression but missing emerging AD, or vice versa. Tools like neuroimaging, cognitive testing, or monitoring response to depression treatment help clarify.If this relates to personal concerns (yours or a loved one's), consult a healthcare professional—such as a psychiatrist, neurologist, or geriatric specialist—for proper evaluation, as early detection and tailored management can make a big difference for both conditions.
