grinders future outlook

High-stakes is like just a dream few people succeed getting into , the variance will mostly crush you at around nl2k which happened to me and therefore I sort of gave up on something which seemed rather fueled by illusion rather than reality.

Realizing this was one of the important turning points of my career where I came more aware on the EV of the seat I sit at rather than trying to "battle" at whatever the game is.

In poker you pay a fee called the rake. This means if you are not having a very significant edge over your opponent you are losing money playing that game.

You might perceive yourself very high but if you run in your game hundreds of buy-ins below your EV would you view yourself the same?

I encountered a period like this and I did also look back into hands played in the past judging them terribly misplayed.

My favourite game is a game of headsup with an OMC who folds as many of his buttons as possible.

We can play plo , plo5 or holdem and it still remains my favorite game.

You get old.

You grow a bit of a beer belly.

You get a bit banned from the 2+2s.

But your still the same guy you want to give something back.

You won a lot of money.

I won a lot of money.

Its a great thing.

I only won half a million max over this time and most of it is gone already.

Life is expensive.

Life is expensive.