Freedom is a lonely road - Live Cash Game Grind

I am writing this blog post more as a journal/expression of my day to day activities + poker related content.

Im currently doing a 50 day stint of poker (<5 rest days, playing 8-12hrs per day) and im already 2 weeks in. I feel this is important for me to dump my thoughts and feelings as I am starting to experience some resistance and setbacks of the big grind. I dont necessarily want to give away all the information of where I am playing and what games as it may affect my bottom line. Again its just more of a place to express. If ppl feel the need or want to comment on either my day+activites or the poker HH then go for it. I may or may not reply. Knowing myself I will probably go through phases of being active and inactive. Im learning alot about myself both poker wise and as a person, test of character.

My current emotional state is a concoction of excited, motivated, fatigued, determined.

Ive been listening to Sun Tzus Art of War for some inspiration. Developing the warrior like mindset.

My diet is reasonably in check (apart from a few bin sessions which result in a detour past 7-11 for an ice cream before bed lol).

Ive been exercising every day with a combination of walking in the sun, weights, boxing, low intensity bike rides and sauna sessions.

Im currently 17 days in and im up 10 buyins. Im averaging 9.37 hrs per day.
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I might back track with some HHs or just go from the most recent session.

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Ok ill leave a little trailer. This is live 9 handed

Blinds: 100-200 (40k eff)
Player: unknown other than not very active in last 3 hrs (easily could be card dead, but also not showing fishy signs).
Spot: 4 bet pot CO vs BTN
Action:
V rfi CO 500
Hero 3bet AhKd 1700
V 4bet 6500
Hero call....

13200 - JJ9r
cbet 3500
call

20200 - 3d bdfd
bet 8000
call

36200 - Ac
he jams ¬20k
I call

He has JTo.

Obviously I dont expect this exact combo but when ppl in this pool 4 bet pre then BBJ its very concerning. I tanked for a while on river for what seems a crystal clear call. I should probably just fold the turn but I convinced myself theres a world he has Ax diamonds on turn. Maybe AK that gives up river and I can bluff jam him off. Little Jx. QQ and KK maybe even check turn a bunch.

I do have a tendency to station and call down in big pots cause my ego gets in the way ( not watning to lose the pot) which I know is bad because its expensive given ppl underbluff these kinds of nodes.

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UTG opens 600
UTG1 super fish calls 600
Hero calls A3dd BTN
BB calls (standard reg)
We are all about 40k eff.

2500 - 334xhh
X to me
I bet 1k
BB calls
Superfish XR 4k
I think about 3 betting flop (and in heinsight I still prefer this) but I call
BB calls again

14500
5x
Check to me.
I think my hand can go either way here, definately can see a case for betting. But I think when BB calls twice he has a really nutted hand, most likely some combo/NFD. The superfish probably just barrels alot of his value too so when he checks I think betting is definately good. With that being said, multiway checkraises are also under bluffed. I end up checking.

14500
Qx, so bricks out.

BB bets 7000
Superfish now raises to 15000
I end up folding
BB jams 35k
Superfish tank folds

Fkn weird hand. I end up talking to the reg who had 44 obviously. I was planning to call his bet if the fish folds. If the fish calls its a tricky spot.
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One more..

6 handed 100-200 40k eff
BTN very active (seemingly competent reg?) isos a fish limp to 800
Hero 3b J9hh BB 3500
Fish folds
Reg calls

7.3k - Th 3x 2x
Cbet 2400
Call

13.1k - Kh
When this card lands I asked the service girl for a dry towel..
I bet 8000 (can size up here abit i think like 9-10k is better)
He calls

29.1k 4h
Ok ima need the whole laundry shop now pls service..

I jam about 23k and he snaps worse.

** I thought this guy was ****ing around having vpiped like 20/30 hands. He might of been and I just ran into it in this hand (given he snapped). Its tough to know with live given the small hand sample, random player pool changing so much and also live card distribution factor. Veryp ossible to run good or bad in a short sample. So I kinda got binned for thinking he was abit OOL. Again my ego decided to say so otherwise. But lesson here is always to bluff with equity.. and get there. That helps.
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About to fire off another session now. Im sore AF from gym and my energy is on the lower side but I am going to set the intention of really dialing in every single hand. No going on my phone between hands and taking a 5-10 min walk every 90 minutes to keep fresh. Quality > Quantity.

GL us & run it onceeeeeee