500K Hands on RNC

Hello, I have been playing poker for almost 15 years and for the last 5 years I have only been playing poker for a living. In recent years, there have been major changes in my strategy and mindset. I could never reach enough hands in GG Poker RNC. Most of the time, small upswings and downswings affected me a lot. I have played nearly 200k hands in RNC in the last 3 years. I have a -2bb/100 EV winrate. Actually, I want to stay away from RNC as much as possible. However, with the intensity of being a father, it has become even more difficult for me to play normal tables during good times. This morning, I tried to sit at normal tables again and while I was trying to find a decent table and play, I ended the session without playing a hand. This situation started to bother me a lot. The last thing I want to do is get into a reg war in GG poker. For this reason, I wanted to start a small challenge for myself. My goal is to reach 500k hands and reconsider how I am doing. I want to complete this by the beginning of June. This way if I think I can't beat RNC at least I won't let it mess with my mind again. I have enough money to play this game but if I experience an 8k$ downswing I will go down to the lower limit and go to 1k$ plus and come back again. I haven't been able to stick to long term challenges for a long time. I hope I can do it this time.