The road to hell and hopefully back.

Hello, everybody!
Back in 2021 I got the chance to play a 100k$ spin and go max. Luckily or maybe not I managed to keep my cool and win the tournament and this is where the fun part ends.
Somehow I managed to make all the wrong choices. I developed a gambling addiction. ( not related to poker I have to admit)
I started playing slot machines online which is absolutely stupid I know. Maybe later in this blog I would share what made me make those bad decisions.
About an year ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, life hasn't been easy since then. I lost most of the money I've had left doing stupid things.
Playing poker professionally has always been a dream of mine and I failed monumentally.
I am determined to build my life back even though everything is really hard at this point.
I have decided to start grinding from the micro limits and see where I stand regarding to my skills and ability to make money playing poker.
Most likely I will play cash games and zoom starting from NL5. I will be grateful if you recommend materials and courses that could be useful.
The goal would be to eventually add MTTs. At some point I will start a challenge but for now it is just an idea.
Please don't judge me too hard I am quite good at that myself.

Good luck on the tables,
Dimi