A Effed Up Wolf Poker Journey

Degen comeback story thread

Starting this thread to provide some accountability to my effed up life. Maybe it will provide some inspiration or warning to others.

Backdrop

I am a winning poker player live and tournaments and mainly a cash game grinder online and live. Have proceeded to blow my life roll as well other **** punting it on sports and blackjack. Rebuilding roll from dust again.... Will start at 100 nl online and live in blackhawk Colorado know the pool well and have printed playing there mainly overnight when degens come out. . I have only ripped a few tournaments live and qualified into a large wpt with all the best in the world did pretty well. Just going to post results each day and one life thought most of the time not really sure where this story is going to go. I will show results of previous success later frankly don't care too right now makes the pain of just punting money worse. Maybe thread will give someone else help or maybe it will just be me ranting getting dunked on by trolls hopefully it helps someone. I will also post some thoughts on live poker ways to make money not be a clown and keep poker alive and fun.

Thought of the Day

The gamblers escape

There is something about gambling in poker or in other bs win or lose where you just feel present if you have enough money down or care. I think many people get into this game out of boredom and love for it. Also it just helps you forget about all the other bs in life for a while. That is frankly what makes the game beautiful for me being present thinking no fakeness no bs and anyone can play without some barrier to entry besides money. There is no handouts and in the end of the day the best players will always rise. (That tournament variance can take a while at time).

The beauty of the escape can take over at times. I have realized this when just non stop firing gambling chasing when it wasn't fun not being present around friends or families. Letting mood swings from betting **** up relationships, feelings and forgetting who you are just being a zombie to that ****. Appreciate the good side of it but be careful of the negative and don't lose who you are. Realized I had to ban myself from sports betting and just avoid the pits of death in the casino because lost control with it. For those who can enjoy it moderately be careful **** is designed to build you into a degen like myself.

Games Today

Playing 4 tables 100 nl and the blame canada mystery bounty today on gold. Probably will end up playing the Night saver 100 buck thing too. 2 Bullets max (I will post any interesting hands or thoughts I have or a good old punt so trolls can get their dunks in)