Dancing with the Old Lady, the Journey continues...

Dancing with the Old Lady, the Journey continues...

I guess we got it wrong all along : it was never about picking a fight with the old lady, crushing her like no tomorrow

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15 April 2016 at 07:55 AM
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EPT Prague Day 6 : Day 2 Main Event and Feature Tables

Things felt like they were on the up and uppp when I showed up at the Hitlon Hotel today, headed towards my designated table and saw a sign that told us to report to the Feature Table. Alright. Not too shabby, right, as given that life gave me a CLEAR premonition of success just before I binked the tournament in BSOP Sao Paolo, I figured that the turn of events would not be cruel enough to have me defend my BB on the third hand on the feature table vs the suposedly WIDE as frack range of the chip leader/Poker Stars ambassador - I have no idea who the fellow isโ€ฆ -, flop the nut flush draw with Ax on the Kxx, XR it 5x, somehow not get a snap-fold, get villain to shove on me with :

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AA๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:๐Ÿ™„:(

And... I... whiffed... :(

No worries though, as there is no better way to untilt/recover some EV then jumping into the 1.1k PLO 08 right, as there will be a TON of older spewtards and younger overly aggro clueless pros exceptโ€ฆ. Except I even managed to trap the clueless arrogant young victim of FPS, leave him with a mere 10% of scooping the high (no low draw) untilโ€ฆ. He fracking gets there ๐Ÿ˜ก He would also be the one to eliminate me a couple of hours later (when his weaker A3xx holding got there) and I was therefore left busto, on the walk of shame and steaming like a 19th fracking century full vapor train ๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก:p

It took me 30 minutes of pacing around the cold greyish streets of Prague before coming back to life with a smileโ€ฆ ๐Ÿ˜€ After all, I have the most amazing gf in the world - albeit emotional high maintenance ๐Ÿ˜‰ ;

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: for those of you who have not followed this year, after going a nut low breakup with L, I met C in Lima, AKA the prettiest-most successful-classiest-ambitious-kindest-woman-of-the-Wordly-World yo

, get to travel the world, I speak multiple languages, am healthy as **** for a 47/soon to be 48 years old, am capable of taking down plentiful of fracking 20 something young lads with yearsss of MMA experience during sparring sessions yo, I have a BR on the verge of cracking the 7 digit threshold, am about to purchase a house in Les Laurentides in Quebec, got my shyt together, am a confident lad, happy and yetโ€ฆ. And yet I needed to repeat myself the above multiple times just to get myself off the ground and I oftentimes lack gratitudeโ€ฆ. Ehhhhโ€ฆ :( And this lack of contentment, as I am forever striving for moreโ€ฆ. Which comes as a blessing, of course, and a God damn curse, obviously!!! Why the malcontent, one would askโ€ฆ. Perhaps one most go back into the childhood years, back towards the education that I received from my parents, that being the best in school, was simply not enoughโ€ฆ. Am not sure, tbh, but it is definitely something to investigate more, especially for an analytical mind like mine that fully realizes how this life passes by so quickly, how we are so fracking vulnerable in the face of Variance and whatnot, and yet, this humility is not sufficient to spark Gratitude, what gives, ffs!?!?!?

Anyhow, on to the 1k NLHE tomorrow ; we got this yo



Dubnjoy, so so sorry to hear about the nut low breakup with L

but ver happy to hear about C!!!

You absolutely got this yo, thanks for posting sir [emoji41][emoji41]


I don't think that forever striving for more is something bad, is just what keeps us moving forward. The day you say 'I made it! I have everything I ever wanted!' is not far away from the day you die sitting in front of the TV.

The fact that you are aware of all the good stuff in your life and all that you achieved so far is what makes that crave for more a healthy pursuit and a driver for growth, and not a painful and hurting mental program that won't lead you to dying of old age in front of a massive TV but will make your heart explode one random tuesday afternoon after working and stressing yourself to the grave.

Best of luck in the rest of the series and thanks for bringing your write ups back to 2+2.


EPT Prague day 7 : 1k NLHE

2 bullets and I could not get anything fracking going, ehhhhh... :( I guess it didn't help that I had my nose stuck in my phone - albeit we did have a fun conversation going with a Brazalian and French lad yo -, that I was lacking that drive to fracking win, that none of my major bluffs got through, sigh and a thousand times sigh ๐Ÿ˜Š. Oh well, tomorrow is the 2.5k Mystery Bounty, our last chance to make something out of this live MTT trip - am presently dead even ffs ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:๐Ÿ™„ - and WE FRACKING GOT THIS YO

by RoadtoPro k

Dubnjoy, so so sorry to hear about the nut low breakup with L

but ver happy to hear about C!!!

You absolutely got this yo, thanks for posting sir [emoji41][emoji41]

Hey friend, amazing to see you back active on the forum And C >>>>>>>>>>>> L, and it is not even close yo

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and I felt for the first time in my left with C that "she is the one", no joke

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L was the toughest breakup in my life in the sense that I could not recognize the Witch/Evil person that she had become and that she tested my trust in human kind, no joke ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked::(. If you haven't yet, I recommend reading the first few posts of my Unibet Community thread which clearly demonstrates my inner pain : https://www.unibetcommunity.com/forums/t...

by ramabranch k

I don't think that forever striving for more is something bad, is just what keeps us moving forward. The day you say 'I made it! I have everything I ever wanted!' is not far away from the day you die sitting in front of the TV.

The fact that you are aware of all the good stuff in your life and all that you achieved so far is what makes that crave for more a healthy pursuit and a driver for growth, and not a painful and hurting mental program that won't lead you to dying of old age in front of a

I definitely believe that striving for more is for the most part positive, but like many qualities/defaults in life, I definitely do not believe it should be treated in a binary matter and that there are several levels of nuances to this variable, me thinks... As an example, the ideal man for me - and I am happy to say that after 47/almost 48 years walking in this Bottom World, I am becoming/am nearing the 100% level of the person that I always wanted to be/become... -, is someone that has a STRONG amount of determination, ambitions and projects (and realizes most of them) etc., but that can also combine this desire for achieving more in harmony with being in the present moment ; I always come back to this image, but for me being able to sitting fracking down on a balcony during a random sunny afternoon sun accompanied by a loved one while sipping on coffee/mates/beer and being FRACKING HAPPY AND ONE WITH THE MOMENT AT HAND is a pure sign of your present happiness levels. That being said, while I am a pretty happy lad in general and strive in the latter mundane balcony moment, I fracking lack gratitude for the life of me!!! With everything that I have achieved thus far. With where I am in life in general. I don't know... I think part of it is the education/pressure I received, while another factor is being exposed to so many successful people in the poker world (both regs and recs). Then again, I have done extremely well as a midstakes reg. But not so much in comparison to highstakes regs/rich recs from the real world. And why should it matter... Especially when I spend most of my time in LATAM surrounded by struggling peeps... I don't know, but I am noticing that real life peeps have more gratitude than I do... End of digression.


EPT Prague Day 8 : 1.6k Mystery Bounty

What a strange day... from committing 85% of my chips on the second hand of the tournament with T high after reraising river 5.7x (and getting a fold), to losing a flip, a 75% and another flip close to the bubble which saw me stand up, thinking I was busto (but unexpectedly had 2bbs left), to sunrunning and winning a flip (6.5bbs), getting a jam through (9bbs), to winning another flip (20bbs) to cracking AA with 89s after losing a flip ๐Ÿ™„ To getting AQo to 4bet jam on my AA and seeing a Q89 J T runout ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:๐Ÿ™„, to 4bet jamming JJ vs TT, seing the T86 flop, 9 turn and J river, to finally moving on to day itm with 15bbs (average 25bbs). I am hoping for a favorable table draw, having a few stacks covered and binking a few bounties yo. We got this



by Dubnjoy000 k

EPT Prague Day 8 : 1.6k Mystery Bounty

What a strange day... from committing 85% of my chips on the second hand of the tournament with T high after reraising river 5.7x (and getting a fold), to losing a flip, a 75% and another flip close to the bubble which saw me stand up, thinking I was busto (but unexpectedly had 2bbs left), to sunrunning and winning a flip (6.5bbs), getting a jam through (9bbs), to winning another flip (20bbs) to cracking AA with 89s after losing a flip ๐Ÿ™„ To getting AQo t

Sounds like a standard day at the office!


by DrTJO k

Sounds like a standard day at the office!

Yup, except us poker pros work in a nuthouse ๐Ÿ˜ƒ:p๐Ÿ™„ Now to determine if it is a nutlowhouse or a nuthighhouse is the question... ๐Ÿ˜‰


EPT Prague Day 9 : 1.6k Mystery Bounty day 2

And... that's all she wrote :(. Things were looking positive - almost predestined, I wanted to believe... - when I showed up at my table and noticed that I was the 4th chip leader thus having an unlikely4 smaller stacks than me at an 8 handed table, with a CLEAR chip leader and the 2nd and 3rd right within striking distance yo Except... the chip leader, thirsty for blood that would make your 19th century Bounty Hunter salivate like no tomorrow, was opening 70% of his hands/calling any all-ins and getting there with his trash, ehhhh :(. So within the first 4 hands played, we had already alas lost the 2 shortest stacks and I found myself barely covering the two other inferior stacks, ehhhh, so when the chip leader opened to 2bbs UTG and I looked down at ATo OTB, I decided that an estimated 67% range advantage, was sufficient enough chip EV wise, given that my bounty EV had been seriously damaged and that ICM is negligent at this stage. Of course, villain snap-called with KJo and ehhhh... fml :(

I am off to Montreal at 3am this evening for a couple of weeks. My dad just got diagnosed with prostate cancer, will be turning 79 soon and given that we now have a great relationship, something that was seriously lacking all those decades prior, I will be enjoying our father and son time (my mom will join us in 5 days). Family time is priceless yo And so is our lifespan/ticking clock in this bottom world, right, so it will be good to finally step away from this 2 card/4 card game of ours, and get back to existential emotions like love, life, death, father-son dynamics and what it all fracking means in the end and all... ๐Ÿ˜‰

I should remain semi-active on this blog moving forward ; nothing compared to yesteryears, of course, but given that C and I will be staying in separate flats (she owns her place and cares for her mom), I will thus be a bachelor from Monday-Wedenesday before she shows up for the Weekend, meaning that I will have much more time than back when I was 24/7 a family man with L, and should hence be blogging perhaps weekly... ๐Ÿ˜‰

I will also be back to write more in details about my goals for 2025, but, spoiler (without being one really ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ™„) : a big part of it will be training in preparation for an eventual MMA fight yo The odds of it ever happening are probably south of 25-50%, but I will nonetheless motivate my training by giving it my ALL as if an imminent brawl until death depended on it yo Disclaimer : I probably could fight within a year if I chose to square off solely in a Muay Thai dual, but given that I want to be a complete fighter and all and that my BJJ skills are severely lacking, I will need to get myself on that ground, roll around Jiu Jitsu style with dirty stinky Peruvian men (and women!) this winter, ehhhhh :(

If not, projects will be your standard spirituality in 2025 (a Vipassana retreat and 2-3 Ayahuasca Ceremonies), getting back my online poker grind on track, traveling within Peru and, most importantly, spending quality time with the absolutely-mostest-topest-bestest-firstest woman in the Worldly World in C, of course In fact, before meeting her, I had never ever felt like "she is the one", until that magical spark happened with her ๐Ÿ˜€. So yeah, establishing progressively a union with her will be #1 goal and... eventually getting a fracking dog yo ๐Ÿ˜ƒ:p๐Ÿ˜‰



sorry about your Dad. I hope you can enjoy Montreal.


by kevan k

sorry about your Dad. I hope you can enjoy Montreal.

Thx bro And I did enjoy Montreal immensely, mainly the time alone with my dad where we got to connect strongly, something that was not always present during my teens/hippie years, but both of us have made effort to meet somewhere in the middle, and lo and behold, I - of course ๐Ÿ™„ - finally realized to what extent we are so fracking similar in so many areas

Am presently in Lima. Update incoming this week...


Life Goals 2025 Style Yo

A new year = setting new objectives, right ๐Ÿ˜‰. The good thing is I usually set them as realistic albeit a little ambitious, but manage to achieve the grand majority (in the tune of 70%+) of them yo And since separating with L a good 10+ months ago, this is actually the first time that I am settling back into a routine : I will be in Lima for 6 months until I make it to WSOP Vegas at the end of June yo ๐Ÿ˜€

- Being a Loving Person: Perhaps it might sound trivial to insist upon this category, but because it remains the important one - albeit perhaps simplistic in terms of life goals... -, I will make it our first category ๐Ÿ˜‰. Being happy. A loyal, faithful and a sound support for C (in every aspect of our relationship). A good son. Brother. Friend. And fellow human being. Lest we not forget y'all

Online Poker : After being restricted from playing on Unibet, I will need to reestablish a solid online hourly once again. I have found a promising site and should easily be capable of crushing it, but am also looking for another site to accompany it/of always having a plan B in the back pocket ๐Ÿ˜‰ And also reestablishing a grinding routine, as, if Unibet had Rakeback milestones thus forcing you into putting a certain amount of volume and oftentimes a good 25-30% beyond what I intended to do weekly, now I am left with pure personal motivation, no more. So aiming for 25h weekly grinding 6 tables should be the new goal yo

Live Poker : My Lima goals will be minor ones : binking a Peruvian flag on my Hendon Mob ; grinding a steady 3-4h weekly at the Marriot for pocket money for the week, live entertainment, free food + drinks and a massage at the table. But more importantly : giving myself a good shot at a 6-7 digit live MTT score in Vegas, Montreal or wherever else the circuit route might take me this year I also would like to be within the top 500 on the Canadian Hendon Mob list, which would require approximately 80k in cashes in 2025 yo

MMA Training : Now we are talking real goals!!! ๐Ÿ˜‰. So, as previously mentioned, I will be challenging myself to be a complete (enough) fighter within the next 1-2 years in order to be able to square off in the Octagon yo Which means mainly working on my Jiu Jitsu, and especially takedown defense, but while also improving my Muay Thai chops to thus increase my potential victory odds And getting my cardio in resilient enough shape to be fairly strong for the length of 3 x 5 minute rounds. So a ton to work to do, really. But given that I was already in the top 25 percentile in my MMA gym despite only having 2 years of experience, the challenge seems feasible. And that I am seemingly learning at a 10% percentile clip. So assuming my late 40s body doesn't completely break down before this combat happens (I would be 49 years old if it does), I believe this to be a viable challenge, albeit most unlikely to happen... Also, a disclaimer :

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I was training with 3 other fellow my age group in my Argentino MMA club, and God damn were they fracking weaklings/old men yo ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:๐Ÿ™„ One of them couldn't even spar/grapple (his body was breaking down), the other I slapped around like a fracking little boy, and the last one was okayish, a little feisty, but definitely still an old frack ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜‰

Spirituality : Along with your standard daily 2h of meditation and one ten day Vipassana retreat this year, I want to do 2-3 Ayahuasca ceremonies. This year and yearly moving forward. Being in Peru is obviously the perfect setting for such goals, so I will hence dip deeper into the Spirit World yo ๐Ÿ˜€.

Volunteer Work : This one is unlikely to even start this year, but it remains of essence towards what I am advancing : to be able to give back to folks in need. Perhaps here in Lima... In a poorer barrio... Cooking food/running a Soup Kitchen... Who knows!!! But I had promised to life that if I had binked 7 digits (or close to) during my recent live MTT stint, I was going to just play poker recreationally and make the latter my sole goal. And to be completely honest, part of me aches to have to go back grinding online like I have done so professionally for 14 odd years ๐Ÿ˜Š


Peace y'all


Establishing a Legit Routine

For those of you that have followed my blog on the Unibet Community thread - that I have alas, been outcasted from :( -, will be aware that I have not benefitted from the stability of an ongoing routine since March 2024. Yup. That long. Most of my time went towards initially trying to emotionally (and legally) survive a tough af breakup, then came dating in Lima, WSOP Vegas, 2 weeks in Dawson, a couple of months in Montreal ; followed by a month in Lima - well spent getting to know C yo -, 6 weeks in Argentina (donating all the material stuff I had accumulated and WSOPC Rosario), a couple of weeks for BSOP Sao Paolo, then EPT Prague, Montreal and - am catching my breathe here... :p ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked: - finally looping back to Lima to be with C for the next 6 months. So yeah, as much as settling down was downright needed, establishing a sane routine is not as easy as waving a magic wand, you know ๐Ÿ˜‰

First on the agenda was the search for a dojo. Because I have been (almost) solely focussing on Muay Thai and boxing during the past 2+ years of my MMA training, I want to focus on my ground game for the next several months : here enters Jiu Jitsu yo Starting this evening, I will be hitting the mats twice a week for a couple of hours of intense training with a coach in a small group And considering that I have but a minuscule cumulative experience of less than 20 hours of Judo and Jiu Jitsu, the upcoming sessions will likely be tough af ๐Ÿ˜Š. Think having to live all over again the first day of high school kind of tough, of being the new kid - ehhhh at 47 fracking years old man ๐Ÿ˜Š - on the block :p. Also, because these will be intense grappling lessons, there will not be an hour of bodybuilding prior to the training like it was the case in Argentina. Thus meaning that I will have to add to the latter schedule 2h of weekly gym as to build up those muscles - criatine yo ๐Ÿ˜‰ -, strength and to preserve my Muay Thai training ๐Ÿ˜ต ; add to this the Salsa class that I promised to take with C, and I am not to sure if my body will be capable of holding up or not ๐Ÿ™„

As mentioned, I was forced to move on from Unibet after a great 6-7 years grinding the soft games over there, sigh :(. I did manage to win just shy of 7 digits on that site, which is amazing, but having to give up your bread and butter is never an easy game, even if the new site seems not only very promising, but perhaps even softer... The thing is that I only made a deposit of 2k and am trying to build organically my roll, as opposed to splashing an extra 5-10k on there, meaning that most of my volume is coming from the 200 PLO games (with a random shot at 500) until I can move up Add to the latter 3h of weekly studying, an entertaining 3h of lol live, and I should manage a healthy 30h weekly yo

As far as entertainment goes, it will certainly not be lacking in Lima. Last WE C and I went to a theatre play and attended some live music, this week will be outdoors live concerts, next week will be an MMA fight (FFC 86) and am still contemplating perhaps overspending af to see Messi play a preseason game in Lima at the end of the month... We will also start going south of Lima in February when the summer really kicks in, hop on a plane to do an Ayahuasca trip in Cusco, along with visiting the more remote beaches up north in Tumbes (by the Ecuadarian border) ; so no, distractions will not be lacking yo



Glad to hear your new relationship is working out, and congrats on working out on your MMA quest. Better you than me on that journey ๐Ÿ˜€


by jrrdesert k

Glad to hear your new relationship is working out, and congrats on working out on your MMA quest. Better you than me on that journey ๐Ÿ˜€

Thx friend

On the love front : this relationship will need a FRACKING ton of work from both of us, if not it will fail. Insecurities from her past relationship keep popping up, which makes it EXTREMELY HARD AF for yours truly, unfortunately. The good part is that she agreed to do a Vipassana retreat. Or an Ayahuasca ceremony. Or both. Or whatever it takes to transcend her inner stuff, as she is a highly confident woman in life in general, but not so much in her love relationships ๐Ÿ˜Š

On the MMA front : I might be giving up on Jiu Jitsu, and thus strictly focussing on Muay Thai moving forward... There is a reason why I always chose to go to my MMA dojo when Muay Thai or boxing was being taught, but avoided at all cost the Jiu Jitsu schedules : it simply bores the living shyt out of me!!! It is a bit too technical. Which does not really use my strongest aspects, which is my strength, heart and tenacity. I will be 48 within a few weeks and part of wanting to improve my ground, is this idealistic vision of becoming a well-rounded and (almost) perfect fighter, you know, as opposed to just sticking to what I love, what I excel it and just striking away yo

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I did do fairly well in my Jiu Jitsu class though and managed to pin down a couple of white and blue belts yo ๐Ÿ˜ƒ


This Game that We have come to Love/Hate

"Has the game passed me by" mutters in doubt that inner voice/that little devil that is guaranteed to pop up every time I hit a prolong downswing :(. Except this time around, I have come to redefine what prolong means unfortunately, sigh and a thousand and one times sigh ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:๐Ÿ˜Š. As a reminder : I have been on a 10k downswing since late February which, even in accordance to the incredibly wild and unpredictable variance of PLO, is still worrying af :p. That being said, I had crush like no tomorrow in Jan-Feb of 2024, to the extent that I still managed to finish with a semi-acceptable winrate (online) by the end of the year, a number that of course happens to be half/a third of what I was netting in my peak years, but that remains nonetheless an acceptable base salary moving forward given my luck with investments and the state of the online games. Now, the fact that I find myself having to grind a new poker site with a much lower RB deal that I use to have, adds to the uncertainty of the equation, obviously. Hence why I must ask myself again : "has the game passed me by?".

This question is as old as the game itself and has been thrown around in the poker community since I started playing professionally, shortly before Black Friday in 2011, which, let's recall, was seen an apocalyptic end to online poker with the poker Gods striking us mere (virtual) mortals with all their THUNDEROUS MIGHT, right ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked: It was a time of doubt. The beginning of the end, many thought. And an adequate moment to get out of the game, not dive deeply into it.

Not being one for following the tides, I obviously listened to not a single soul and, against the general consensus, proceeded to accumulate monies yo That being said, most of it came from an extremely soft live game, north of nowhere in the Yukon a few kms away from the Arctic Circle, a game that had not a single professional partake in it and within which the faces never changed, to the extent that my exploits, personally adjusted for each player, worked out incredibly effectively in the short, medium and long term yo - think of a WR of 25+bbs an hour over the span of 14 years yo Crushing online was a different story though, and if I (too) comfortably accepted a smallish hourly in online MTTs for my first few professional years, I started to absolutely crush the virtual cash games when I switched from MTTs back in 2017 at a 2-3x hourly that I had managed live, which not only increased my WR beyond expectations that I had set for myself, but gave me the absolute flexibility to travel freely the world without a financial worry yo And I maintained this (crushing) tangent up until 2023-2024 where my WR took a slight dip (and then a bigger one), but at nevertheless acceptable levels.

The good news is that those peak years saw me invest wisely - HODL, gold and safe market investments yo -, never indulge in a lol look-at-me-Balla-approach-Oh-too-common-in-the-world, so I hence find myself in this ironic and curious position where playing poker professionally has become questionable while my BR has significantly gradually increased

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as an example : even if I myself in the midst of a 5.9k downswing for 2025 (-4k while editing these lines), I have gained 35k over the past couple of days in crypto alone ๐Ÿ™„

. Anyhow, to come back to our narrative : every time that the question "is the dream of playing poker for a living still alive?" has existentially popped up in the poker world, I have loled it off, shrugged the question away, as even if such was the case for the majority of the aspiring pros, my WR simply asserted otherwise yo - and perhaps I was the exception to the general rule... But come 2025, the question is stronger then ever : "has the game passed me by?"

Think AI. RTA. Inflation (while playing at the same stakes). New ways to cheat. The general population getting better. And perhaps indeed my golden years have come to a screeching halt! What I do know though, is that I am emotionally (and almost financially) ready to move on from the game, that this inner fire to forever crush has since left me and that even if I am still going through the motions of studying sufficiently, preparing myself mentally for the grind on a daily basis and all, I do believe that the light is dimming at the end of the 2-4 card tunnel... But then again, if such is the case, the question becomes : what awaits next...???

In the short-middle term, I will be focussing on establishing an acceptable WR online ; as far as live goes, if I had initially planned not to invest more than 50k in BIs and mainly during WSOP Vegas, by all appearances I will be firing twice as much in series across Peru (a small stakes series next month), Vegas (both WSOP and WPT Wynn Championship), Montreal (WSOPC and WPT) and Europe (not sure which series, but ones that involve exploring a new county yo ), as the second half of 2025 will be spent away from C/and hence traveling somewhat freely ๐Ÿ˜Š


Peace


Da Routine is Back Yo

An excellent week in the books as, firstly and perhaps most importantly, we are now back in the black yo Yup, I went on a 6k+ upswing which, might not seem as much compared to my standard lol weekly - 4 card ๐Ÿ˜‰ - swings of the past few years, but considering that I wanted to pull another deposit-a-very-smallish-amount-and-withdraw-a-large-6-digit-amount like I once did on Unibet

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a (not at all) subtle brag : I originally deposited a mere 1.5k (CAD$) on Unibet, proceeded to cash out 1/2 million before being forced to deposit anew a 5k a few years later (to once again cashout a few hundred k, deposit a last 10k when I had 30k in liquidity riding on politics/sports bets

, so I hence find myself playing mainly smaller games, 5-6 tables of 200 with 1-2 tables of PLO 500), with the majority of my action focussed on the great game of Omaha ๐Ÿ˜€. Now that my BR has significantly increased on this new site and that I get to lower somewhat my variance by running it twice (most opponents agree to do so/have their settings automated in accepting the double runouts), I will be playing 500 PLO once again with eventual shots at 1k. As far as holdem goes, I am afraid that it will be mainly to fulfill enough volume/tables going and mostly at the 200 level (with infrequent tables of 500). I am presently in the lab with my 4 card game and will not study the 2 card game until perhaps April (and then study holdem MTTs a couple of months before the WSOP).

Anyhow, it was a satisfying week on the felt, my confidence is coming back and my attitude towards playing poker professionally has changed (for now...) given the softness of this new site (albeit with lower RB) ; let's hope it stays this way ๐Ÿ˜‰

In other areas Off the felt/in the Muay Thai ring, it has also been quite the successful and uplifting vibe : after visiting 7 dojos overall, I have finally chosen one which I am quite satisfied with ; the gym is nice, spacious, with a ton of (various sizes of) boxing bags, a ring to sparr in, a shower, weights/Dumbbells to warm up with and some very warm and charismatic teachers One thing that I had to come to terms with though, is that the Muay Thai courses do not distinguish in between beginners and advanced students (unlike the Jiu Jitsu courses), so I thus elected to pay extra and get private courses instead of training with noobs, kids and teenagers yo It is 4x the price, but still very affordable. These will be twice weekly but I will still be training 2-3h on my own as to put to execution the newly learned techniques (my next AirBnB has a gym and a boxing bag yo ), and to continue my body-building and whatnot. So yeah, am pretty content in that area of life as well.

I have the impression that it will not take much time to get a solid social circle going : first of all, I connected very strongly with C's family/friends - her mom not withstanding, sigh and a thousand times sigh ๐Ÿ˜Š. And am getting quite close to a male friend of hers. Moreover, I crossed paths with a foreigner Muay Thai student who is about my age and while I usually befriend more locals than expats, this fellow (from Texas, but with a seemingly Arab background...?) looks very open-minded, nice af, has also learned Spanish in Argentina and seems to have had quite the interesting life experience... So yeah, nice to rapidly expand a little bit the social activities and at a rate EXPONENTIALLY faster then I did in BsAs yo

We will be going to the beach south of Lima for this long WE with some of C's friends ; it should be fun times


Be well all


Sounds things are looking up on all fronts. Good to hear.


Da Beast

In Rocky Balboa - which is technically the 6th film of the franchise -, Sylvester Stallone came back with a critical smash hit after the (critical) flops that had been the previous 3 installments (since Rocky 2, basically). And one scene in the movie that really shook me upon rewatching it last year, is when the character of Rocky, who we all know to be as humble as can be, self-erasing, compassionate and an overall very nice fellow, finally cracks and reveals why he still wants to square off in the ring at such an advance age : "BECAUSE I HAVE A BEAST IN ME ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:!!!" screams out the usually mild-mannered Rocky : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Et_Bdct1...

Those words jabbed me right in the fracking face ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked: as I also recognize this same beast that roams freely inside of me, untamed, growling nonstop to be unleashed, to fracking lash out towards all of life's obstacles ๐Ÿ˜Š. You see, gone are the those youthful 90s, AKA those juvenile grudge days of screaming along to Rage Against the Machine lyrics and thus canalizing all of that inner angst towards society, injustices or whatever societal issues that were popular to protest against at the times ; but with maturity (and the personal responsibility that comes with it), one must accept that the Demon was always alas internal ๐Ÿ˜Š Safely locked up. Prompt to erupt at any God forsaken instant ๐Ÿ˜ฎ:shocked:๐Ÿ˜ก

Here comes into play MMA's Hexagone : this unspoken region in the dead centre of the Labyrinth where only fringe angry creatures head out to discover ๐Ÿ˜‰. You see, we are hermanos at heart, shake hands before exchanging blows, bloody hug each other once the dust settles and after a winner is naturally chosen. These bloody brawls have always been an intrinsic (and anthropological) part of civilization since Greece... Or the Mayas. Or whatever Civilization, because everyone knows that every (bloody) road leads to Rome, right... ๐Ÿ˜‰ ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

It is better to be a Warrior in a Garden, than a Gardener in a War (Miyamoto Musashi)

I am ashamed to admit that over the span of the past year - or more precisely, since being exposed to an overly complicated separation with L that lead to a ton of anger -, uncountable were the occasions where all Hell (almost) broke loose, alas and a thousand and one times alas ๐Ÿ˜Š :( Sure, Buenos Aires changed me. And one needs to fight for every inch of space in LATAM. And Argentino's vertiginous economical fall was no walk in the park. Nonetheless, I have come to accept that a physical confrontation only belongs in the Ring. In a controlled and regulated setting. Securely tucked within 4 ropes, as to contain both warrior's rage. And far away from the streets yo.

Thx bro

Peace y'all

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