The fitness well

You sure you're on a good combination of stuff? Lol.

when was the last routine you were in that worked well for you, is it possible to get back to that?

honest to god brate since the psychiatry stint i have been ****ed up on these ****ing meds that they force me to take.

other drug wise i only take k*tamine because im so ****ing depressed.
got the X from three different girls within the span of a ****ing month so i feel extra ****ing bad....

Like, shut down at the beginning, or they dumped you after a couple meetups?

girl 1 M1 started instantly talking about her ex after we did the deed RED FLAG.... weeks later she told me she only wanted to be friends and i confessed that i liked her and she was like ok. and then she said she wanted to get back to her ex and i was like gl.

girl 2 Is we call her we had a ****ing great ****ing start but I told her i had feelings for M1 and that there was another m2 in the picture.
last week we messed around and we were about to become a thing but couple days after she said she wanted to have a talk and i was like ok.

she had some worries
1. that i play poker for money. and i was like yeah but i know what doing (lol read my poker blog to see how much i know what im doing)
but i bluffed and said everything under control - ok.

2. my party habits, and i was like if we become a thing i don't need party or substances and she was like fine - ok.

3. lol here comes the deal breaker she said I AM NOT ALLOWED ON A BOYS TRIP -L O O L.
BUT SHE IS ALLOWED TO TRAVEL TO ITALY AND HAVE A GIRLS TRIP I WAS LIKE HELL ****ING NO.
caps lock over, one day later she is like i want to quit dating you but we can be friends - i told her to basically **** off and blocked her.

girl 3 we call M2.
met her 25th december we went to an afterparty at my buddy C place she didn't vibe with them she went home but we exchanged snapchat.
we start talking and i was like should i come over she said omg yes.
ok.
i come over we hang for like 36h hours and i even met her ****ing kids.
come new year

i meet M1 at the party and she is with some noob dude, we never dance and she leaves hurriedly with the noob awithout saying a word.
M2 writes to me and is like COME NOW and im like yeah but i wanna go home with M1 and she is like bring her too and im like lol no.

well i go to M2 because i can't ****ing find M1 and to my surprises M2 is at home with some ****ing another noob dude.
he leaves after like an hour and im alone with M2.

She is like we waiting 2 months to do the deeds but i am me so we do it after like an hour lol.

okay

after that she ghosts the LIVING HELL OUT OF ME.
I write to her yesterday you got 24h to respond or we permanently break all contact - she reads - no response.
today i ****ing block her.

so yeah that's 3 for 3 straight in the ****ing bin.

edit:
we got a tiny glimmer of hope because i found a girl J on tinder and she wants a date on friday.
we gonna eat ****ing persian and one dish is like 30 bucks and i am ****ing BUSTO atm asking a friend for a loan but he is roasting the living hell out of me so we will see if the date even ****ign can happen.

oh yeah i trained today per usual chest on mondays i ****ing need to do ****ing legs tomorrow....

pec deck up to 210 pounds but i only ****ing managed 3 reps lowered to 170 but had no more reps in me..

bench press:
70kg x6
70kg x8
70kg x10
long pause
70kg x15

next workout i do 75 or 80kg.

over and ****ing out.

This how i looked today.
What you Guys think I weigh?

i ****ing did legs.

front squat:
20kg x6
40kg x6
50kg x6
60kg x6
70kg x6

leg extensions lbs:
30 x12
50 x12
70 x12

leg curl:
70 x12
90 x12

and that was ****ing it

blasted a 2nd workout, only outside shoulders.

Side dumbbell laterals:
5kg x20
8kg x12
10kg x12
12kg x12
14kg x12

proud of 14kg x12 in side laterals tbh

Side lateral in machine lbs:
90 x12
110 x8
longer rest
110 x12

over and ****ing out

Hmm, so it sounds like you are looking for a steady relationship?

Or maybe a sugar mommy steady relationship? That seems like a win-win-win or whatever.

Anyway, sounds like you are living the dream. OTOH, it also sounds like a PITA and a lot easier to just not deal with all that drama lol.

Yeah brate I am looking for a wife....

Well if it wasnt for the ****ing medicine im forced to take i would be living life.

did max set 28kg x6 in biceps curl, im proud. only did biceps today.

Probably could just do biceps for a year and still slay rando 10s at any global club.

Thank you brate but my game isnt that ****ing good i keep ****ing getting rejected man.

I mean, most guys can't even get 3 girls to hook up with them in a month.

Okay I guess you have a Point bratan.

Today I as usual felt like utter and absolute death but I dragged myself to the gym.

Triceps:

Dumbbell triceps extension above head:
14kg x6
20kg x6
24kg x6
28kg x6
32kg x12 top set saved myself for this thats why i only did 6s before.

Triceps push down in cable:

Top set 40kg x8 (proud PB)

Lying dumbbell triceps extensions:
4kg x15
4kg x15
7kg x12

Over and ****ing out

Did back today only two exercises but heavy.

Lat pull down:
Top set 100kgx6

T bar rows bar+:
20kg x15
45kg x12
60kg x12

Over and ****ing out

Chest today, strength was on ****ing point!!!!

Peck deck in machine:
Top set 230lbs x6

Inclined dumbbell press:
18kg x11
18kg x12
18kg x8

27 minute workout, over and ****ing out

lol.

Stay strong, king. Relationships by default involve both parties sacrificing some degree of both self respect and freedom; saying stuff like "never lose self respect" or "don't accept your partner controlling you" in the context of relationships is hilariously naive and a feelgood aphorism people say without really thinking about it. But ultimately when one party makes it explicitly asymmetric in this way, that's grounds for terminating a budding relationship because what awaits you is going to be horrible.

(my story of Sally in my log a few months back was a good example: TLDR she wanted me to deposit my monthly salary in an account owned by her while we were married and she explicitly said "I don't want to have sex more than 2x/wk" Naturally I told her **** off)

Yeah man ****ing deal breakers.

FLASH NEWS:
Im competing in June.
With that said I pulled off and embarrassing workout today...
4 sets of wide grip pull downs
3 sets of narrow grip pull downs

I need to ****ing shape up FFS.
Cardio starts ASAP....

Today I did chest and shoulders.
Spammed front raises with a barbell and then with a 10kg weight.
Got a solid ****ing pump in.
Cardio starts.... Soon...???

Throwback to m y 2022 cutz

Let's get back to it, yeah boy. Off the cucked psych meds, onto the testosterone (not trenbolone though that **** will make you neurotic af), back to the cuttzzzzz.

LMK if you're interested in completely free coaching for another show.

Im forced to take the ****ing meds... If i dont receive my shot once a month they have the right to call the police on me which forcibly take me.......

Thanks bro! Would love some feedback.
Got a coach atm, but would totally be cool with more tips from someone as experienced as you bro.

You gonna get him leaner than the 2022 cut? That looks pretty shredded to me.

Modern psychiatry/mental health system is straight up dystopian.

its ****ing torture brother.

forgot my bag at school so i CBA to go to the gym today.