Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)

i hope the seduction goes well

There was a game on Xbox Live many years ago that captured my youthful spirit.

It's called Geometry Wars, and it is a god-tier arcade shooter with amazing graphics.

In tandem with my mind passing away, I also left the video game in the past.

A few days ago I went looking for Geometry DASH, a good game in its own right.

But instead I stumbled upon GW and I was totally thrilled at the unexpected gift.

A++ game, $14. Highly recommend:

I'm in my 3rd week of quitting weed, and it Looks like another night without sleep.

I tried sleeping naturally for about 3.5 hours, only to wind up with a headache.

I've ironed out exactly what I'm gonna tell my doctor tomorrow.

If she doesn't prescribe me what I need, I'm going to the emergency room, again, tomorrow night, where I should be able to acquire 8 doses of Ativan.

There's a pretty good chance I get sent to the drug rehab center nearby. Where for a week I'll attend group therapy sessions, eat good food, and surf the internet.

The ER will schedule me an appointment with a new psychiatrist, I'm pretty sure, within the eight allotted days.

My friend in Mexico said I could easily get Ativan over the counter there.

American health care is dumb as ****.

American MENTAL health care is the nut low.

Shoutout to spacemanBryce, who told me I can go to the ER when I'm having a problem. Instead of calling the cops on myself etc.

The best run-in I've had, when the cops arrived I was already face down with my hands behind my back near the front door. I then pissed myself in the backseat of their car lol.

Another time I came barreling out of my room with my finger pointed in the shape of a gun, only to crash into a wall much to the chagrin of myself.

And finally, the last time it happened I stood in the doorway silent when the officers approached. I was in psychosis and I thought the world's diplomacy was on the line and there was no way I was going to give up my secrets.

I also can't believe that all it would take is driving 10 minutes down the road, buying a bag of weed, and sleeping blissfully for as many hours as I want. Weed sucks in a lot of ways, but it is a panacea for going to sleep.

sounds prohibitively expensive, are there cheaper options?

Life is just so ****ing ironic. I'm so close to leaving mental health problems in the past and entering my prime savant-hood / permanent state of hypomania, or whatever it is. I just have this one little problem....

There are no other options to my knowledge. It takes a while to see a new psychiatrist usually and it's a shitty process I'm doing everything to avoid.

Maybe there is quantum entanglement going on with the mirror image of myself existing in another universe. That guy is crushing life harder than anyone.

*Sleep Chart*
Slept - 2 Hours
Awake - 8am

Meeting with the shrink over the phone (unfortunately) in 90 minutes.

I HATE when things don't go my way so expect a rage post to ensue.

If an asteroid falls out of orbit crushing me into the ground before this phonecall with my doctor I won't even be mad.

I'll be grateful.

C'mon Tuma, you can do this.

You've beaten back 8 different mental illnesses.

Making you a world champion.

You're ****ing biblical, dude.

This shrink is a tiny nothing in the scope of things.

You will crush her.

You will crush her.

There will be nothing left but a bottle full of pills.

Reflecting on the conversation with my doctor, I can honestly say:

and

which is a

and I am very

Solution:

I fear that I am ordinary just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong

As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world

If anyone can get me a bootleg copy of TETRISPHERE for PC I will make it worth your while.

Edit: I seem to have stumbled upon a web based version.

*Sleep Chart*

Sleep - 0 hours

I spent the evening oscillating between my bed and my computer.

I convinced a friend to buy Geometry Wars 3. He saw my high score and declared me a phenom.

As it is told, I was reborn on International Womens day (3/8).

On the first day of my life, I shared hot corned beef with my first childhood friend.

On the second day of my life, I parked at MGM and walked around the city of Detroit with his brother.

On the third day of my life, I succesfully defended myself in the face of psychiatry.

Today, I am crushing Geometry Wars, eating delicious food, and pleasuring myself to my heart's content.

......Hopefully 2p2 gets the Tweet function back soon because it's attached to my central nervous system of posting my stream of conscious.......

I miss electric guitar. Tuma LOVES to play the FreeBird.