Averaging 28 BB/hr my first 60 hours back at $1-$2
Posting it here in the hopes of getting plenty of “omg you r-tard you’re just going through a hot stretch” replies.
Lost my job a month ago and decided to spend my new free time at the local casino. Biggest Hold’em game is $1-$2 with $2-$100 spread limit (the most you can raise is $100 more than the previous bet).
And….I’ve played for 61 hours and am up $3450 so far. And YES $840 of that is running over my All-In-EV, but, still. My last job was a fake email job, I didn’t earn close to this much.
It’s not speeding up my job search, is what I’m saying.
RIP OP. :(
Just an update: yeah, it’s true, I quit poker, I self-banned at the casino (although, in a sign of how truly evil they are, I learned that I could only ban myself for 6 months at a time…then I’d have to go back and request another ban, which would be for a year….and THEN and only then would I be able to go back and get a perma-ban. Pretty gross.
Unfortunately, this isn’t a happy story. Quitting poker hadn’t done anything to make me happier, gambling was of course a symptom of my depression, not a cause of it, so giving it up has done nothing for me. It’s probably made things worse—poker was at least getting me out of the house, being around people, occasionally feeling good about myself, etc.
I’ve tried other hobbies—bowling and competitive Scrabble, renewing my gym membership, etc—and while it’s nice to track my improvement, they still leave me feeling empty inside. I’m about as close to Cobaining myself as I’ve ever been—there’s just extremely little to look forward to, in ten years my kids will be out of the house, my parents will be dead, and my disease (Multiple Sclerosis) will continue destroying my mind and body at an ever increasing rate.
I don’t want to plans this all on that drunk guy cracking my AAJ9 with some garbage in a $1600 pot, but it has definitely played *a* role.
never give up brother (in life). wish i could have a beer with you or something but i really cant drink.
Davo, I’ve always enjoyed reading your posts on here. I was sorry to see you’d banned yourself but I def understand why you’d do it. Sorry to hear you’ve been having a tough time. Do you have anyone you can talk to IRL? Do you see a therapist? A lot of people close to me have struggled with depression at times and seeing someone can be really beneficial.
Good thread. Cliche ending, depression by off-brm bad beat.
Tbf, having a run, (good or bad) with a start and finish is always going to be better than spending your life in these badly lit, ball sweat filled rooms.
Enjoy irl
Great thread
Indeed a great thread OP sorry you ended up realizing you were addicted but at least you realized it. Good luck in life my man
UPDATE: So I started drinking in October, just to do something, and while at first it was just a couple a night it quickly spiraled out of control, to finally getting blackout drunk in front of all our friends and family at a Christmas party and telling my wife several times that I wanted to die.
Fortunately, this was a bit of a blessing in disguise, as everyone staged an intervention of sorts and I agreed to stop drinking and, more importantly, start seeing a therapist to get some help for my depression.
In the game-playing world, though, I have discovered a new obsession: I joined our local Scrabble club and have become *obsessed*. I swear to God, I pulled ATRESIA out of the bag last night and I got the exact same rush I used to get from getting a big bluff through or flopping a set. And it’s just really nice to have a new hobby—something new I can do in my spare time and track my improvement. Sure, it’s useless—no one really cares how quickly I can rearrange the letters in EGINOSU to make IGNEOUS, and it’s not like I’m even learning what these words mean—but even still…it’s keeping my brain active and gives me something to look forward to every week…which is better than anything I’ve had in a long time.
igneous is a type of rock
