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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
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Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very w

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DeeKayBee avatar
1006 posts · member since Jul 2023
7mo ago

GG nice score.

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago

did you smash ur head against the wall that hard it knocked you out?

39 posts · member since Jan 2021
7mo ago

Great job, Chany. Just don’t go nuts with the money

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago

Update?

120 posts · member since Jul 2025
7mo ago
by Pileupthecoins

did you smash ur head against the wall that hard it knocked you out?

Question for Pileupthecoins: Do you have any other hobbies besides writing pointless posts in this forum (I'm asking for a friend)?

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago

back to back to back big one for one drop victories for chany.

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
7mo ago

Im ok
Down like $400
Bought new cell phone.
Idk
Kthxbai

DeeKayBee avatar
1006 posts · member since Jul 2023
7mo ago
by ChanY

Im ok

You are only "ok" after binking your biggest score of 2025? Maybe chasing big bink is more fun for you then actually binking it? Could be a good moment to stop and think about what you really want...

Congrats on big score anyways, hope it makes life better for you!

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago
by ChanY

Im ok
Down like $400
Bought new cell phone.
Idk
Kthxbai

U can do some textin and calling with hot chicks on your phone. Once you win the wsop main back to back to back u will have 50 wifes. u will traveling the world reciving 100s of texts from all ur wifes on your new cell phone.

any raves coming up?

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
7mo ago
by DeeKayBee

You are only "ok" after binking your biggest score of 2025? Maybe chasing big bink is more fun for you then actually binking it? Could be a good moment to stop and think about what you really want...

Congrats on big score anyways, hope it makes life better for you!

You know in lobotomized by 2.5 years of incredibly heavy medicines from the psychiatry, and been extremely turbulent with my GF.

So Yeah, in ok but not ok.

Down another $200 i think from $25Nl PLO ZOOM, lol.

Kthxbai.

Going to buy this screen tomorrow:

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komplett
Philips 34" curved gamingskärm 34M2C3500L/00 - Gamingskärmar

$300 but used to cost $500

And my friend P will give me his old gaming computer so I will have a new setup!!

Kthxbai

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago
by ChanY

You know in lobotomized by 2.5 years of incredibly heavy medicines from the psychiatry, and been extremely turbulent with my GF.So Yeah, in ok but not ok.Down another $200 i think from $25Nl PLO ZOOM, lol.Kthxbai.Going to buy this screen tomorrow:

u should be playing 200NL and 100plo with ur roll. also 33s and below mtts. i suspect u lost alot of ur roll and ur nearly busto.

DeeKayBee avatar
1006 posts · member since Jul 2023
7mo ago
by ChanY

So Yeah, in ok but not ok.

Hope you use the money to improve it, gl.

ChanY avatar
OP
1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
7mo ago

I did not.
Lost Idk hos much past days online, like $1000?
And to make up this i lost another $1000 on Baccarat in 10 minutes.
Funny thing is i was up $650....
So I was even for today, but no.

I end up being like down $1500 only today.

Kthxbai 😀

120 posts · member since Jul 2025
7mo ago
by ChanY

I did not.
Lost Idk hos much past days online, like $1000?
And to make up this i lost another $1000 on Baccarat in 10 minutes.
Funny thing is i was up $650....
So I was even for today, but no.

I end up being like down $1500 only today.

Kthxbai 😀

Stop playing poker and other games. It destroys your life….
Go and get help

1777 posts · member since Apr 2025
7mo ago

Could win a million dollars and you'd still be broke in a week. Yikes.

39 posts · member since Aug 2013
7mo ago

A) Back to busto well before 2026, endless downward spiral continues.

B) Cash out, self exclude. Probably never grind poker or pit games again. Grind therapy, self improvement, gym etc instead and maybe become a functioning member of society

My money is on A, but hope you’ll prove me wrong, or at the very least enjoy the nosedive

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago

Chany your not addicted to gambling to win. You crave the feeling when you lose. thats why you just keep playing.

356 posts · member since May 2024
7mo ago
by Rolled High, Bro

What was the incident that caused the government to mandate anti-psychotic injections, and what steps are you taking to ensure it doesn't happen again?

by Rolled High, Bro

Chany, comment?

Also, it's almost the end of the semester, how much substitute teaching work have you done this school year?

Not sure if you missed these in all the excitement. Congrats by the way, I'm sure with your brand new bankroll it'll be smooth sailing for the rest of the year and into the next!

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
7mo ago
by Rolled High, Bro

Not sure if you missed these in all the excitement. Congrats by the way, I'm sure with your brand new bankroll it'll be smooth sailing for the rest of the year and into the next!

Close to busto.
Lsot another $1000 basicly as soon as I woke up hell bent on winning back my money.

Roll at $340 now 😀

Planning ion hanging myself

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371 posts · member since Jun 2014
7mo ago
by ChanY

Close to busto.
Lsot another $1000 basicly as soon as I woke up hell bent on winning back my money.

Roll at $340 now 😀

Planning ion hanging myself

Hanging yourself won't entertain this thread. And you need to just stay off the internet, go for a walk. Good luck.

356 posts · member since May 2024
7mo ago
by ChanY

Close to busto.
Lsot another $1000 basicly as soon as I woke up hell bent on winning back my money.

Roll at $340 now 😀

Planning ion hanging myself

You've said that so many times at this point it's like your catchphrase.

What about the medication and job questions I asked?

ChanY avatar
OP
1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
7mo ago

Roll at $58 now.
Kthxbai

Chip Wynn avatar
371 posts · member since Jun 2014
7mo ago
by ChanY

Roll at $58 now.
Kthxbai

That ain't a roll that's just 58 bucks =P.

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
7mo ago

you will be back playing the highest stake mtts on stars and even playing nose bleed plo cash in no time. with all ur winnings you can play high stakes casino and go on a run the biggest run in online casino history and stars will even block ur account to investigate how ur winning so much money.

42 posts · member since Jun 2024
7mo ago

I don't understand, did he lose that 9k bink in a week? It can't be true

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5mo ago

chany is alive...

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10mo ago

Won $1550 in a WCOOP side event.
Kthxbai more details 2morrow.

Im cooking....

ChanY avatarChanY
10yr ago

Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very well either, I was buried deep in ''debts'' as a 8 year old when I ran incredibly bad playing rock paper scissors against a friend for Runescape in-game currency (had to grind for two weeks straight killing monsters and collecting loot ffs). This passed on and every game I played had the touch of gambling. I played Habbohotel (a online-community where you could interact and have rooms which you could decorate with furniture) where you could actually have your own casino, lol. You basicly had in-game dices that you rolled and the closest one to 21 won double theyr wager. At the age of ten I was playing blackjack basicly for real money since the in-game furniture actually costed and I was playing pretty high stakes. It doesn't strike me until now how sick that actually is and that it was not targeted in any way.

Fastforward until I'm 18 where I started actually gambling a tad, the occasional slot or some blackjack. I really loved it, a bit too much. However that was short lived, I still remember my first experience on Pokerstars. I deposited 20 bucks and played 25NL, doubling it up quickly and as quickly dumping it. I deposited again and started playing some 6 max hypers and I was hooked. This was the ****, and I was actually good at it! (roflmao I sucked and ran like Hermes). I made like 300 bucks in two days and thought I had found out a way to print money. Cashed out, and was incredibly pleased with myself. Well spoiler alert, this was not a way of printing money. I kept playing and I sucked so bad that I just kept losing for months, the fact that I was playing $15s. I gambled away every single penny I earned through my job as a; wait for it..: croupier (lol how unexpected). It sucked, I was such a degen and I hated myself for it. I was counting down every single day until my next salary which is the 25th here in Sweden, and then procceeded to go broke within days. Rinse and repeat. Relatively it was not very big sums at all, but it was what I had and it started to escalate.

I had tried to play tournaments at times, but I just did not have the patience. Patience has never been my thing, and patience is key in MTT poker. 6 max hypers were perfect, fast paced and mass variance. My cup of tea. I would try the occasional turbo but even that was too slow for me. I gave the Hotter 16.5 a shot one sunday and I managed to go deep. I played like utter bull****, but with 30 left I was 2nd in chips. I was about to burst in pure excitement, this was my DREAM. To break even and even be in big profit. Every degen knows that they only have one goal on theyr mind, to break even. You look forward to that ****ing day when all your losses are buried by the big score. For months this was on my mind, I had to make back what I lost. But I was quickly pulled out of my dream. I busted in 16th when my A9s could not hold up against KQ. The queen on the floop was like a sledgehammer to my nuts. I could not sleep that night, I felt so incredibly bad that I did not know what to do with myself. I was so close, but I was screwed. ****ing ****.

Somehow the next Sunday I manage to run deep in the Hotter 75. I remember the prize being 20k+ and I felt that this was my ****ing chance, I was given a second ****ing chance. This time was my ****ing time, and when I see a shove and reshove and wait impatiently to click call with my KK the excitement was beyond the roof. I even flopped a set, but I got backdoored by A7o which rivered a straight. I proceeded to bust in 50th place and once again I was a wreck. ****ing hell, fml. So ****ing close again why was I so unlucky? Little did I know that worse was to come.
I decided to solely grind turbo MTTs, I had been so close to my goal and felt that I kept grinding that I could do it. Over the coming 6 months I ran so ****ing bad that it was not sane. Admittedly I was not very good at playing, but I just took some insane and outrageous beats where I should have just held. It never stopped and I kept being manhandled deep in tournaments over and over again. Obviously this is not good for your economical status and I was torching money at a very fast rate. As the months kept passing I had an occasional small 1-2k score which I lost back within weeks, enough to keep the small fire within myself burning.

My first real big score was the Hot 27, I won $4k. This was in december just a couple of months ago. And somehow I was not satisfied at all, this was rougly more than 1/3 of what I had managed to lost in the previous year. I had to keep grinding, and grinding I did almost managing to bust my roll again. For a couple of weeks I was swinging like a ****ing yo-yo. Losing 2-3k, binking a mtt, losing 2-3k and then binking again. At this time I decided to invest in a coach, I GRIND THIS (best coach NA) which pointed out my obvious leaks (punting and random spazzes lol) but also overall helped me play a much more solid game. Well, shortly after I procceeded to have the sickest sunday ever where I chopped the Hotter $33 for $10.5k, won a $109 turbo for $5.8k and chopped the Hotter 8.8 for $2k.

Finally I had managed to break even, and was well in the profits region. But it was not as I had imagined to all. All I felt was apathy, it really was not as big of a deal as I had thought. The coming days I barely played at all, and when I did i played sloppy since I had no motivation at all. I had gone from zero to actually having much money (by my own standards) and I really could not give less of a ****.

This was just a month ago, I actually was about to start a journal here before that but I just could not be arsed at that time.

With all my rabblings put away this will be my log where I log everything. All the MTTs I play, all my feelings and what not. I will try to take a much more serious and stricter approach towards poker where every single hand and BI matters, as of right now I'm not always playing my A-game and sometimes I basicly punt away stacks especially early on in tournaments. This journal will be a way to enforce myself of playing a solid game since I will log every single tournament played with any occuring spot or if I do something plain stupid.

As of now I only have one goal and that is to make $25k until the end of the year, not including earlier cashes so I'm counting from journal start.

So sit back, fasten your seat belts and enjoy the ride!

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My graph, lol. Outdated one tho, I might be a tad + since then.

A newly taken picture of me....