Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)

Mark,

It's okay! I've realized the NFL playoffs are kind of dumb to care too much about.

Idk what system is better. I just know you can feel good for a baseball team making a deep run, etc., but football is pain.

"I might not hit the back, but I tear up the sides!"

- William Chen

I'll start this off
without any words.
I got so high
I scratched 'til I bled.
I love myself
better than you,
I know it's wrong
So what should I do?

The finest day
that I've ever had,
Is when I learned
to cry on command.

I love myself
better than you,
I know it's wrong
so what should I do?

I'm on a plain.
I can't complain.

Only in the darkest dredges, alone, usually latenight at a casino, do I find my greatest inspiration.

Yes, perhaps I do. I wanted to start a blog post at the tables, but chose not to. It's 8:30AM, I am barely awake and on my way towards slumber, but felt it was my duty to support the troops of 2p2 with a sliver of inspiration I felt prior.

I have a good post in mind, for those trying to lose weight, for the future. It aims to map out the complexities of trying to diet, reducing it to a simple affirmation of "weaponize hunger".

That's the key to the promise land of looking and feeling great. Everything else comes down to useful tips that you most likely have to learn on your own. If it was as simple as a recipe + exercise, there wouldn't be so many people falling flat (and flab) in their trials.

(I suppose I have enough willpower to crank out this post...continuing into uncertain waters...)

For the lucky few, "diet + exercise" is enough to win. We know this is fundamentally lacking because of the near infinite number of solutions provided. Moreso than the failure rate; why are there so many diets to chose from?

I think there are two reasons for this. One is to conceal the truth from people. It's a hard truth, that when taken extremely literally can be deadly.

The other is selling points to provide hope for people. Did you fail in your previous diet? NO BIG DEAL! We have others to chose from.

Back to the simple truth, which is the only thing I want my friends to take away from this message.

Learn to embrace, dominate, and weaponize hunger.

That's it. That's the obvious learned abililty that can kill people. Maybe that's why it isn't sold in "pill form" to the masses. It is a most ubiquitous aspect of dieting, I'm honestly surprised it isn't talked about more.

"I'm dieting and I'm hungry"
"That's no problem! Here's a new age trend where you can eat whatever you want!"

Hunger is the antithesis of gluttony, when taken to church it is the path to salvation.

And when approached intelligently, it is likely even better for the mind than it is for the body.

They want you to learn how to crave working out, how to look forward to a delicious salad, or even cheat meal.

They do not preach enough about hunger. To crave the struggle, to embrace a temporary pain in your body, one that is largely your own mind tricking you.

As a metaphor, hunger conquers mountains, builds businesses, and accomplishes dreams.

As a biological tool, it is a surefire way to become a world champion of wellness.

The key to losing weight is to accept being hungry a lot of the time. A mind and body struggle in tandem might be one of the harder things for some people to learn.

But it has to be done if you want to win.

Good luck to those out there trying to lose weight. If it's nearly impossible for you, I'm sorry to know that. There's no shame to how your biology responds to stress. Some people cannot for the lives of them function on little sleep - even some of the most talented people I know.

Explore hunger within reason. I beg of you, your body begs of you; it can be done.

I oft remember what a gastroenterologist told me about losing weight, "The body resists change". "Gradual small progress is the best way", he then said.

I like that you include puncuation outside of quotes.

Far and away Beethoven's finest work:

Come in here, dear boy, have a cigar, you're gonna go far
You're gonna fly, you're never gonna die
You're gonna make it if you try, they're gonna love you.

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark
Looking for an answer

Bliss is a rather nice place to be.

It wasn't always like this. Let's have a very brief conversation about some components of mood disorder/mental illness.

Despite living through abject hell, I barely can remember what it was like during the worst of times. I know where I was, and what I was doing, but I cannot perceive how much of it felt. Fortunately, if needed, I have 40,000+ posts to sift through to begin its understanding.

Even hardcore anxiety, something I once planned to write at-length about, is like a fever dream at this point. I remember the headaches, I remember my psyche feeling engulfed by flames, and a strong urge to kill myself.

But the long periods of severe depression that preceeded the anxiety are a mystery, perhaps thankfully. I know it was extremely bad, the hippocampus is important and mine was likely torn apart by a pharmaceutical. I remember making a 4L thread about 6 years after the onset, asking if I had been brain damaged. My condition, I likened it to, having been struck in the back of the head with a sledgehammer, not knowing it happened, being misled by absolute foolish doctors, being lied to by the people closest to me, while trying day and night to figure out what had actually happened to me.

Mental illness is torturous. It is worse than prison. I would definitely go to prison for life to avoid my previously felt condition. Absolutely, without a doubt, and with a huge smile on my face.

While I felt alone, I was not. Something like 30% of teenage girls, and 12% of teenage boys, suffered from major depression in America as of 2020, according to a chart I saw on X. Even more haunting, the girl's line was growing exponentionaly....

Something has to change. Sick people deserve better across the board.

If I was God, outside of curing everyone, I don't know where I would begin fixing the epidemic. I would probably make psych drugs free, and easy to get. I would provide a ton of extra welfare for people burdened. Maybe I would build elaborate Thinking Centers where people could congregate and hopefully learn to out-maneuver their situation.

Beyond that, it seems hopeless. And terribly sad. I'm extremely lucky to no longer be burdened, perhaps just as lucky to have only a small memory of how it felt.

I was crawling in the dark, looking for the answer.

Meanwhile I was busy playing millions of hands of online poker, learning how to think critically; how to line up thoughts in sequence; how to process events in the present and plan for the future; a dozen tables, thousands of hands per day, hour after hour, I combed the fibers in my cortex and weaved a beautiful garmet that kept me out of poverty, and saved my life.

If you think I'm bluffing, I assure you I'm not. The proof is right in front of you. Sift through my older posts and you will see something dark, and strange, diminish over time as my writing ability improved and I learned how to socialize.

I wonder what the future holds for me. I know with geometric certainty that it will be incredibly interesting. I'm still finding myself improving in all areas, my headaches have diminished to 1/1000ths of the discomfort they used to cause. I still get small bouts of depression, it feels more like "being in the struggle" than needing medical intervention.

But I am no longer glued to the past, something that dominated my thinking going back to when I was a child.

And each day that passes I get a little bit stronger.

And a little bit more tired of the status quo.

I know I'm the Hero of Time. I've seen it in the stars, everyone may know this to be true some day.

An artist with no hands, A thinker with no brain, an Elvis without a guitar.

I will find a way to change the world like no one has before.

The academic subject I was most fond of growing up was Physics.

I vividly remember the first day of class Junior Year.

It was my first time performing a thought experiment.

Our wonderful teacher, David, placed two fishtanks side by side with equal levels of water.

He placed a toy boat in each, and held a rock in his hand. He then asked, "What will happen when I place the rock inside the boat, compared to placing the rock alone in the water?"

We voted. Accelerated Physics, lots of bright kids. It was an even split; I don't believe I was on the correct side -- I hadn't used my mind in this way before.

Take a guess which aquarium had the higher water level comparitively:

I was mystified.

(Phew) For a minute there, I lost myself.

Definitely weight. In zero gravity the rock would displace its volume.

Ike gets flamed for wearing a hospital mask while playing poker. Pokernews has even chimed in with a negative opinion.

If you are against people protecting their own health, and preserving that of others, you are an imbecile and I kindly ask you to stop reading this blog.

One bagel = fine
Two bagels = 3-day colon cleanse

Funny how that works.