Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)
When I was forced to march into the woods for 8 weeks, the food they gave us had absolutely no processed sugar. On day 4-5 I would’ve paid $400 for a piece of candy. nothing is worse than being forced into the deep forest after living a life of comfort and lies. But its good for memory. I remember cigarettes even though I dont smoke. I remember my grand parents even though they died and hardly anyone cared about them. I remember being lost in the forest days without food.
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i genuinely think you'd make an excellent poet
+1. Bryce is among the very coolest people on the site.
TY both.
bryce you great !
I am back home in Michigan, for the Summer, and forseeable future.
Vegas was pretty alright. I was there for 6 months playing live poker "full time". I made profit in 5 of the 6 months, which was good. I neglected to integrate myself into much of anything in the City and socially, which was not good. I had a really fine time kicking it with my roommate, a 2p2'er I've been friends with for roughly ten years. I have a history of not getting along well with people so much, and it was really great to prove that I am able to.
I smoked more weed than 99% of the planet in Vegas, and ran out of supply as of a few days ago. I usually have a difficulty sleeping for a few days after ceasing, but have been sleeping okay. Evidence that my mental health continues to improve is everywhere! Like on twoplustwo, for example, I look back at the era of having dozens of accounts, being purposefully annoying, sending radically stupid PMs, etc. like it was a different lifetime ago. I now have 0.0% desires to be destructive and irritating. Which is a function of my present stability. Life really is rather pleasant and enjoyable enough; the past is a big whatever and the future looks really great.
I went for a ~3.5 mile walk today, in perfect weather I listened to music and had an enjoyable time ruminating through my thoughts. I fell off the dieting wagon kind of hard a few weeks ago, which always happens anytime I attempt something extreme. Fortunately I have continued to lose weight -- down roughly 10 lbs. in the past six weeks. My overarching goal was to diet for a full year and a lose a pound per week. I think the one year ambition was critical, knowing the journey would be long and at times ardent; with peaks and valleys, wins and losses, triumphs and defeats, and everything in between; the trials would not be defined by a bad day, week, or month. The word failure is a misnomer. I have failed recently, yet am succeeding in totality, which is real widsom.
I ordered 1.6M Scoville Heat Unit tincture to try a drop of next week with a friend. It was purchased from Puckerbutt Pepper Co. whose products I especially endorse. It will likely be a brutally fun time, and I'm not so worried because there shouldn't be any indigestion. Capsaicin cramps are no joke, even mild ones feel like something is really wrong and are debilitating. The worst I've ever felt was when I ate fresh habaneros for breakfast on an empty stomach. An hour later it felt like razor blades coursing through my abdomen. I ran to the kitchen and luckily had ice cream waiting for me in the freezer, which coincided with a heightened pulse to eject the contents of my stomach from both ends. It was among the worst physical pain I've ever felt .... fortunately I was totally fine - the agony of spicy food is pretty much only simulated, and might even be good for you (I suspect) as it strengthens some component of the nerves along the digestive track as one's tolerance builds. You might ask why I do it if it's so unpleasant... I'm not entirely sure. I enjoyed spicy foods as a child and the pain has always seemed a little bit fun and a challenge.
I am starting to "get into" national politics, but it seems rather terrible and like something I should avoid. I might prefer things to be "black or white" or supported by math or science, which is the antithesis of politics. I watched "the" debate and it was kind of sad and kind of funny. But then my social media feeds became dominated by regurgitating discourse, stimulating me to vomit my opinions across the universe. There was only mainly one -- that being CNN is horrendous programming. I am not afraid to admit that I kind of like Trump, he *kind of* humors me, and I don't mind how he expresses himself -- which is the main thing. I remember listening to someone or another's speech a few years back, I think it was Hillary's running mate, and the way he tried to use poetic phrasings to express complete emptiness made me want to die a little bit. Overall, the whole sphere is kind of ******ed in various ways. I don't think I need to hammer home the obvious.
Surprised the 'R' word is asterisked. I don't mean to offend, and have an extremely soft spot for people with disabilities.
nice man, you still going to do the pokers in MI?
You saw me lost and treading water
I looked pathetic, I looked as helpless as a stinger without a bee
But underneath my presentation, yeah
I knew the walls were coming down and the stones that fell were aiming away from me
Hey, what would it mean to you (what would it mean to you)
To know that it'll come back around again?
Hey, whatever it means to you (whatever it means to you)
Know that everything moves in circles, yeah
I saw you standing in my headlights, blink, blink, blink
I thought I'd run you down for the weight you left on me
Instead, I pushed rewind, reversed, and drove away
And seeing you disappear in my rearview brought to me the word "reciprocity"
There is a scene in the film Donnie Darko. A teacher proclaims 'Cellar Door' to be the most linguistically beautiful phrase in the english language.
I challenge that. I believe the most pleasing phrase is
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Radial Symmetry
no, it's
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I went from living one of the more challenging lives imagineable, to living one of the easiest. All it took was good fortune spread out over several years time, coupled with day-in day-out determination.
It is not lost on me that I cannot squander this opportunity.
I didn't know fatigue was a common symptom when quitting weed. I've been sleeping 16-20 hours per night this past week!
I had a trifecta of annoyances today!
Bought some TSLA near the very top of the day's tech slaughter. Lost at poker. Car died on the freeway coming home from the casino.
I remain blessed.
A brief philosophy of life:
If you live a great and morally just life, after dying you wake up in the distant future as a sentient AI.
If you live a pretty good life, you wake up as a human.
If you live a bad life, you wake up as an animal, with an animal brain.
If you live a terrible life, you wake up as an animal with a human brain.
If you live a rotten life, you wake up as an insect.
If you kill, steal money, hurt children, disabled people, or animals, you wake up in hell for a length of time in proportion to your crimes.
Some examples of hell:
- Not being able to die while retaining some portion of consciousness
- Drifting through outer space in a glass tube for all eternity
- Experiencing a painful death in perpituity for all eternity
- Burning at the center of the earth for a long time, up to eternity
- Experiencing the crushing weight of a neutron star
- Darkness
New whip.
Same drip.
People often say that X sucks, along with the human race. I see amazingly touching media on X every day.
Let this brief video serve as a vessel of hope.
Incredibly touching and inspirational film. Watching that ending again brought tears to my eyes. I remember watching it just over 20 years ago, almost as if it was yesterday.
Thanks for posting it.
I feel like every time I post about something good happening in Poker I get temporarily doomswitched.
Dare I say I'm several degrees better than my opponents back home?
Beat: Electric Cars drain extra battery on the Highway.
Beat: It's cheaper to use a supercharger at night, but it also takes longer.
Beat: My side-mirrors don't always return to their saved position, so I had to disable the tuck-in feature.
Brag: Literally everything else. I can't imagine a better driving experience than what I undertake with a Tesla Model 3. Which came with a few upgrades. It goes FAST and handles perfectly. I've shared this with friends, and I'm a little shamed to share this publicly, since I'm not so materialistic, but I do feel like I have the nicest car on the road. I get a small dopamine rush every time I hop in.
It's the best. And it wasn't that expensive. Tesla makes the best cars.
I don't understand investing. I'm definitely not great at it. Perhaps surprisingly, I did very well in Finance and Econ back in college.
Maybe I've just been unlucky in the few times I've dabbled. Maybe not.
AORN I've made a long-term commitment into investing in Tesla. I love their products, and have hope that their stock will go up sometime in the next 20-40 years.
I'm meeting with a Merrill Lynch salesman later today, and will be asking him questions he doesn't normally field, like about variance, and how their securities perform in bad market conditions. I'm probably just going to pick out a CD though, they get around 5% returns....when I was fiddling with their online service, my questionaire returned 'medium risk tolerance' and I was offered a mutual fund expecting to return 342% in the next three years, which sounds like complete bullshit. They also take a fraction of a percent in fees on the account balance every month which seems unfair.
I wish I had a friend who was a goat financial advisor. I'm lucky to have friends at all, and there are aspects of merit to their opinions which I often seek out.
