POG PUB 2024: A New Year, A New Thread, A New You
It was an honor to spend 2o23 with yall. And I look forward to spending 2o24 here too.
Happy New Year!
On the positive side of things, if you put them together your physical mental health could be viewed as a 10/10!
/lh
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But in all seriousness, filthy, I hope that you see some improvement on the mental side soon. I know the struggle is real.
thanks friends! ♥
this is a rough patch. i've been through worse though. but this might be my second worst.
I'm still hurting from losing my brother to an overdose this year, and my sister to cancer last year... and now my partner is really hurting, and I can't help her. and I'm really hurting and she can't help me
that's not really true. we can help each other! we just can't cure each other. I do help her! so much! and she helps me too.
I went to my first ever alanon meeting Friday. well I tried, but I got scared and didn't go inside. idk if i'll try again.
I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist with Autism and ADHD-C last year, along with the usual anxiety, depression, and PTSD.
Getting medications targeted to these conditions has improved my mental health incredibly. I was having basically autistic meltdowns and was barely able to stay on task to get any work done.
Lexapro and Strattera (and hella weed) keep me in a good place. As we get older, things can become more difficult.
I had to figure out the autism thing myself and ask for evaluations, no one
wow! that's great you got meds that help! wow!! and it's incredibly ****ed up that you had to self diagnose. psychiatry is in the dark ages. I mean as a science it's shockingly just wild guess work a lot of the time. one time I wanted to see if I could get a psychiatrist to diagnose me as bipolar, and I did. really easily lol.. and I'm def NOT bipolar
I've seen a dozen psychiatrists, dozens of therapists, tried 5-10 different anti depressants, in various combinations... from 1998 to 2012... I never got definitive help from those meds. they did **** up my brain though. heavy doses every single day of pretty serious drugs for 15 years.
maybe meds got better since then? maybe I should try again? but I don't think meds are my problem solver... what really did help me before was committing to regularly socializing, exercising, eating right, and SLEEP
right now though I have no interest in any of that. I think what I need right now is just a break. I need some time to heal. then I can start worrying about doing things like exercise and socializing... I was able to go for a 2 hour walk this morning. yay progress
but yeah man, thats really wild to correctly diagnose yourself with previously unknown autism in your 50s or whatever... wow.... sometimes I feel like I'm autistic, but I'm probably not. i've taken tests online and I score slightly autistic. pretty sure I'm just depressed and anxious. thanks for that mom and dad!
Geez Filthy, that is a horrible nightmare of events. Devastating to anyone. ugh. :(
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VR, Any luck with your phone?
RIP VR's phone.
Eric, is there any issue with traveling on an airplane with a Li-Ion car jump starter?
It has the jumper cables and a fairly beefy sized battery. It's in a 5cm by 20cm by 15cm case.
I can't speak for how things are in the U.S., but things tend to be similar in most developed countries. First, it would have to be in carry-on baggage, not checked. In Canada it was the case that you couldn't have the battery and cables. I would have to double check if that has changed for appropriately sized batteries. In Canada (and, I am pretty sure elsewhere) you can have as many Li-ion batteries up to 100 Watt-hours as you want. Over that, but less than 160 W-h, you can have two. You are not allowed 160 W-h or larger Li-ion batteries, except to power a motorized mobility aid. In that case, you can have that battery and one spare.
Thanks Eric! So to verify if I check the cables and have a 159wh or less battery in my carryon, I'm good?
The **** are you up to
Thanks Eric! So to verify if I check the cables and have a 159wh or less battery in my carryon, I'm good?
While I can't promise anything about the U.S., I would not have a problem with that if it was where I work. It would be a good idea to have the battery out of your bag (maybe even in a separate bin) when it goes through the x-ray. It may be diverted just to check the size.
thanks friends! ♥
this is a rough patch. i've been through worse though. but this might be my second worst.
I'm still hurting from losing my brother to an overdose this year, and my sister to cancer last year... and now my partner is really hurting, and I can't help her. and I'm really hurting and she can't help me
that's not really true. we can help each other! we just can't cure each other. I do help her! so much! and she helps me too.
I went to my first ever alanon meeting Friday. well I tried,
Wow I'm sorry filthy. I gotta admit I spent 9 days last year in a psyche ward after trying to kill myself. I found out I couldn't drink enough vodka to pull the trigger. I blood tested at .436 at the hospital.
♥ kcaaaaawwwww
damn kcaw... I hope you're doing better these days. I mean you pretty much have to be lol... cuz that sounds like quite the low point! and I'm not making light at all.. that feeling must be the worst feeling anyone can ever feel. I'm sorry you had to feel that much pain
I never heard of .436 wow
I made an appt to see a highly recommended therapist on Monday. i've already started doing work to improve my mental health. it's not fun. and not easy.
something that helps me are some of the crazy, depressed ass philosophers... emil cioran, Arthur schopenhauer are two of my favorites. they know pain.
cioran's first book is "on the heights of despair" lmao at that title!! he said "it was either write the book or kms" I never actually read the book cuz ain't nobody got time for that. I just watch clips about him on YouTube, and read some of his quotes.
I did try to listen to his second book "on the trouble with being born". overall I didn't like it, cuz it's just him rambling, like a sentence or two, then he'll totally switch to completely unconnected thought... its just a collection of quotes. for hours and hours.. but some of the quotes are really great though! not that I can remember any of them
but anyway yeah kcaw... take care of yourself brother ♥
Thank you. They gave me 100 gram pills of setraline when I left the hospital. I had a bad reaction to it. I was back at work but got the shakes so bad I made frantic calls til I finally got a hold of someone to pick me up even tho my car was literally feet away. When I talked to my postmaster about it I told her I'm sticking with the devil I know. Haven't taken anything since. And it has been ok.
You aware of Lorna Shores drummer? He is insane.
Also almost unlistenable after a minute like animals as leaders.
Damn kcaw, it hurt to read that. Best wishes dude!
Oh and let's go Steelers. 8-3 baby!!! (Let the jinx begin :p)
You aware of Lorna Shores drummer? He is insane.
Also almost unlistenable after a minute like animals as leaders.
Jesus. I have never heard double strokes on the kick that fast and clean. And it seems basically effortless. Dude is a machine. But yes, completely unlistenable.
Prog is infinitely more interesting to me than deathcore (Danny Carey is my fav drummer), and I much prefer AAL to whatever it is Lorna Shore is doing. Matt Garstka is absolutely ridic and is way more musical and pleasant to listen to imo.
Greetings to my friend and fellow veteran of the sheep wars, kcaw. We gotta stay outta those psych wards, brother! Me and you both.
One of my favorite genres of drum video is "Pneuma Reaction". I'm sure you've seen the Vic Firth video but there are like hundreds of videos of people reacting to that video and I just love watching people's wonder and amazement at what Carey does. Some go into technical detail, some analyze the time signature, this one by a vocal coach just sparks joy.
The last concert I paid to see was Tool on the Lateralus tour. The whole second half of the show was a Danny Carey jamfest.
♥ kcaw
