A raging fish on a heater
Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very w
satte into the $55 early battle, got 38.5bb and a dream....
I work as a substitute teacher and I am not needed every day.
Like for instance today, and tomorrow seems to be no show as well.
Right, but it's not like you are honor-bound to only work a job that leaves you in abject poverty. You can get another part time job to supplement it, or leave it and get a full time job, or get a degree so you can be a full time teacher. I'm asking why you don't do those things that would improve your life.
Right, but it's not like you are honor-bound to only work a job that leaves you in abject poverty. You can get another part time job to supplement it, or leave it and get a full time job, or get a degree so you can be a full time teacher. I'm asking why you don't do those things that would improve your life.
He thinks poker would improve his life but its just getting him into more debt.
geting me into more debt until I clear all debt and more with a bink, like I have done before..
degens gonna degen, got a hold of $20 (no gay **** xD) and now I got three faaaaaaaar shot satellites registered.
edit:
only only 5.50 sat left to a 55 to a 530 $$$
man i feel so ****ing miserable i am such a ****ing degenerate that its not true to how low i will go
busted the last satty jamming ako on the btn for 10bb and getting snapped by the sb who shows the incredible hand of k6s.
poker is dead (x)
i did not win
soft bubbled a 11 dollar satty to the $215 stacKOsaurus bounty, got 55 bucks....... was allin for the win 55 v aq ace on the ****ing river.
soft bubbled a 7.50 sat to the big 109 as well...... got 25 bucks for my effort.
Busted everything.
I cant even be bothered to write about my deep runs because I am just tired as **** now.
Got a big scolding from my parents of how poker is the Devil and it will ruin everything.
They tried me making me quit but I basicly said I will quit in my grave this they absolutely hated.
Applied for a new job today so I will be having a fat till for SCOOP
evolve now
be a lizard gecko skin mud red baboon and howl
or know. get skinn'T and eaten
got $12 and $15 from merciful father, which we burned through.
rn waiting for a lon from my bro D who has been supplying me with a $50 loan for like the past three months (which i pay back the same second i get my salary).
lfg?
maybe watch live mtts online all the time and go play live?
got $12 and $15 from merciful father, which we burned through.
rn waiting for a lon from my bro D who has been supplying me with a $50 loan for like the past three months (which i pay back the same second i get my salary).
lfg?
for a $11 MTT sat ur going to make around 60 cents each one you play then lose on the actual target MTT buy-in looking at your sharkscope stats.
I suggest playing cash games. if you can beat 10NL 6 max for 4BB/100 and play 2 tables you will win 80 cents a hour without all the variance as well.
If you can beat 100NL for 2BB per 100 playing 2 tables you will win $4 a hour.
I do the same playing 100 spins buts its -ev and varience will bust ya with 2 buyins. Get $100 and play 5NL or 2NL. Proceed to get more dollars and load up account. in no time u will have $1000 if your not a loser at cash games. Buy-in to a larger MTT every now and then like a $33 or a $55 once a week or something once you got $500 or something while adding to your roll from borrowing or job. with your skills of borrowing you should be able to get to $500 pretty fast and have a shot at getting your debt paid while actually putting in hours playing solid cash games.
change ur stragegy just a bit or keep going bust and not playing much pokerz. you want to be playing poker all of your waking hours and since u work 5 hours a week u should be able to play 100+ hours a week.
Thats a cool suggestion but I am putting my whole effort into MTTs.
I opted out on my sharkscope again, but man I checked my win history and the guarantees on stars used to be ****ing massive and huge compared to what ashes and dust they are now.
I am starting to doubt if its even possible to clear me to even with a big bink.
Like what tournament nowadays will give you a $10000 payday?
There used to be a 3.3+Rebuy that I can swear atleast had like 7-8k$ for first....
My only hope right now is to go haaaard on the sattelite grind during SCOOP and make it in a $109-$1050. Lets see how that turns out.
Edit: D said he could borrow me tomorrow right now he drunk as **** lmao, what a ****ing bro
Wrote down a memoir of my EPT Barcelona main.
I am busto, once again.
I am so familiar with it that it barely hurts.
I do not have a single penny to my name.
Honestly I can not remember how I get hold of more funds, but somehow I do - like I always do.
I sign up for a €27 EPT Barcelona qualifier.
I win a €215 seat going straight to the Main Event
I play as my life hangs on it, and I proceed to build a stack.
Adrenaline flowing through my Veins I see the Vegas and the Mirage as Matt Damon in Rounders described it.
Somewhere in the tournament my beloved sister enters my room and I make a misclick.
I have a 50bb stack and I call of 20 something of them with J7o in the BB.
I am up against QTo and I ****ing bink a Jack on the flop and I hold - I am almost ****ing set for Barcelona.
My friend Ram joins Skype, sweating my run.
This was 9 years ago so I dont remember the exact details but I ****ing proceed to Bink a €6000 package including seat and expenses.
Man I ****ing celebrate like there is no tomorrow.
The dream of dreams for a degenerate like me has been fulfilled.
The coming weeks all I do is study live and breathe Poker.
I sign up to Cardrunners and study every single video there is in order to be my best in the Main Event.
The same day I am supossed to travel to Barcelona for some reason I load up an Online Casino. I degenly dust of a couple of $100 before I decide to quit.
Well that was a bad start.
In order to not make it into a TL DR I will fast forward to the day of the Main Event.
I play day 1B and I sit down on my chair.
Man is this really ****ing happening?
I used to watch all the YouTube Coverages on the EPT Main Event, especially the Barcelona ones and here I am now.
The 21 year old degenerate kid is in it and he is kicking ****ing ass.
I run my stack up playing my A-Game and I end up in the luckiest Pot of my Life.
UTG Scandi pro opens up and raises throwing in three chips. I 3-bet AA, also making it three chips.
Italian man in the CO throws in three chips because he thought I called.
Dealer tells him its an raise, he calls the floor.
I sit there still as an I dont know what, not rejocing inside but just calm. Anything can happen.
Floor rules it a call from the Italian guy.
Scandi Pro UTG jams it all in.
I tank for a minute hoping to reel in the Italian Guy making a bad call.
He folds.
Scandi villain shows AK, I stand up from my chair
I have seen it all playing Online, you are never ****ing safe.
Flop is blank, turn and river assures me a big double up.
At best I am up to around 140k from the 30k starting stack and I end up bagging 118k in day one.
Man I am ****ing ELATED.
Day 2, I head to the Casino full of confidence.
I check my table draw, seems fine.
Only one pro.
Lets not make it a TL😃R we fast forward to the most unlucky hand of my life.
I open JTs UTG, only button calls.
Flop comes down AKQ rainbow.
Holy ****, I flopped the nuts.
I bet 75% pot, villain calls.
Turn brings another Ace, I check.
Villain bets around 80% pot - I call.
River is a 5, there is no flush on board.
Villain bets 80% I make the call thinking I am good. I only lose to AQ i think...
Villain flips over A5 for the backdoor boat.
Man I feel sick to my stomach.
My bustout hand haunts me to this day.
I had been VPING quite a lot (I actually had hands).
I open ATo in the CO, villain on button 3bets me and we are about 35-40BB eff.
I decide to jam.
He snaps it off with AK.
If for any time I would need the rungood in my life, this would be the spot.
Flop is Ace high, we probably would have gotten it all in anyways but I dont hit a Ten.
I am ****ing devastated, from being on top to the world I am in the depths of the abyss now.
Within two hours I had busted a 118BB stack.
They had made changes to the payouts so the end of day 2 would have secured me a cash, if I had played it safe.
€8200 was a lot of money for me.
I decide to hop into a €1650 which I also bust.
Roll decimated, and so in spirit and mind.
From the highest of highs, to the lowest of lows
Got a couple of parapgrahs left before I post it on BBV but this is a rough draft.
Wrote down a memoir of my EPT Barcelona main.
I am busto, once again.
I am so familiar with it that it barely hurts.
I do not have a single penny to my name.
Honestly I can not remember how I get hold of more funds, but somehow I do - like I always do.
I sign up for a €27 EPT Barcelona qualifier.
I win a €215 seat going straight to the Main Event
I play as my life hangs on it, and I proceed to build a stack.
Adrenaline flowing through my Veins I see the Vegas and the Mirage as Matt Damon in Rounders de
if u won the ept u would have 4 wifes now
satted into the $27 eliminator and basicly made it to the $11 mystery bounty from a $12 donation from merciful father.
but i feel ****ign atrocious have no ****ing will to grind i just want to lay down in bed and i want to say die but i don't want to die i just feel ****ing oblivious to everything....
lets try my best anyhow shall we?
LFG.
edit:
extra extra just busted the 27 eliminator with 58cc i flatted in the sb turning a fd and a gunshot vs topset
kthxbai.
tilted it all of
Edit:
Man I got some pretty big tilt issues still like I always had. I just dont give a **** about single tabling a $11 dollar tourney, like I truly ****ing dont.
If the stakes are higher I seldom tilt, but when its early in a low stakes tournament i just dont give a ****ing ****.
man borrowed 50 bucks from a friend, but he told me this is the last time he will loan me which put me in a very shameful and low spirits mood.
got 8 bucks left that i right now have all in on PLO....
fml man why can't i just be a regular human.
edit:
bluffed it all off got 1.86 left in zoom plot, fml man what's ****ing wrong with me
got a min deposit from merciful father.
put it all in a $11 satty to the good old $215 stacKOsaurus.... 24.4bb and a dream xD
You have no idea what s its like to see someone you love do this to himself i pity your parents man.....
Wake the fk up and act like an adult u soft spineless shadow of a man.
You have no idea what s its like to see someone you love do this to himself i pity your parents man.....
Wake the fk up and act like an adult u soft spineless shadow of a man.
i am actually very aware of what i am doing.
i went through this pure hell of a life in 2016-2019 and I SPOILED my parents hardcore when things were going well.
i always thought about my parents, losing quality time with them over playing poker - but i ****ing made it into the green and I spoiled them hardcore.
bought iPhones, bought a tv -gave them money.
money isn't everything in the world but was my way of showing gratitude for them being there by my side.
so you can gtfo out of my thread an never return kthxbai
edit:
we won a flip in the natty 38bb and a dream now 😃
We busto....
Got one single friend who I already owe money left, then its completely GGs.
Like guys, I dont even have to post these miserable posts but I CHOOSE to be transparent even though I am basicly using my IRL name and you can google my PokerStars name and find this journal.
Like I seriously dont give a ****, this is me take it or leave it - and my friends ****ing love me to death anyhow because I am otherwise a stand up guy that is there for everyone.
Will wait to ask my friend because my little sister is coming home in 2 hours and I want to be present for her because she seldom comes home, so Yeah I still got some priorities right.
You have no idea what s its like to see someone you love do this to himself i pity your parents man.....
Wake the fk up and act like an adult u soft spineless shadow of a man.
Like **** you my merciful father came home and gave me a hug because he saw me in bed and deduced I was busto.
Guys cherish your parents they wont be here for ever.
