A raging fish on a heater

Never forget

okay so i should have thought about this b4
juicy satellites to the $215 sunday million running, and we at $0.15....
maxed out at one friend, no more loans.
same with another friend.
one friend is in thailand and according to google its 00.41 there now so he is sleeping.
got two more friends left, one didn't answer when i called (he is my best friend, he is just busy he isn't ducking me)
the last friend gave me lecture last time about how miserable it is to loan $50 at the age of 30 and i was like i agree bro, which honestly i ****ing do.

but i REALLY wanna play the sunday million so lets ****ing cross our fingers for a loan.

listen up guys, i could lie myself blue and pretend this didn't happen but **** it.

i asked a friend for 25 bucks he sent me ****ing 100 bucks, proceed to register ****ing everything.
long story short all i got left is a $11 sunday million satellite.

im so ****ing stressed out and I ****ing feel atrocious, because now I have this intrusive thought that he will ask me for his money back and they are like ****ing burnt up already.

man i hate myself so ****ing bad, like seriously what the F U C K is wrong with me.

im working tomorrow but i am so ****ing drained spiritually that I can't be ****ing arsed to drag myself to work living in this misery.

rant over, try to piss on me if you dare ill bash your skull in.

Ok.

Satted in to the Sunday $215 million.
Entered in @20bb, busted in 6 hands.
Flopped top pair with Q8ss on Q43cc board, villain bets small i have 11bb remaining i check jam villain had AQcc and im dead on the turn.

Key hand before that was opening QJo in the lojack, btn big stack only caller.
Flop comes 972 rainbow i Cbet 3rd pot villain calls. Turn is an ace and I ****ing bitch out and check villain checks behind. River is another Ace, no way to bluff now and villain shows down k7hh.

Well I am not that devastated, honestly somehow high in spirits. Busto, broke and in debt - but not broken in spirit.

imagine if u hit a 8 and held.

u may of gone on to win the Sunday million.

True story $600k would be ok.

you would have to get a 500k loan once u got 600k and buy-in to a million dollar live MTT and bink it for 20 million.

then u would have close to a 200 buy-in bankroll to play 100ks.

see you at the tritons.

this is your goal now.

now win the mtts. u got no excuse just win and come back posting results. stop been a loser.

my ****king guy.

just hit the gym.
got hold of $16.50 which i put into a $11 stacko sat and a $5.50 satty to the milly.
bricked both.

rn waiting for a friend who said he might be able to give me $50.
lets cross our fingers, the stakes are high.

play some enieiem lose yourself u only got one shot this opportunity comes once in a lifetime.

u have to have that attitude bro.

I got that attitude and the dog in me but no cash.
Will MAYBE get 50 bucks from a friend

once u get the cash buy some chicks some handbags and dinner. get a hotel. imagine if u won 600k u could have had a different chick everyday for months buying them all sorts of stuff till u bust and have to play 55s on stars again. u could buy them a 2025 range Rover in black color bro. the chicks would be happy.

this one for a hot chick. 7 seater. you purchase 4 her with winnings.

this one for you 3 seater. also purchase with winnings.

You the man pileupcoins you probably trolling me but atleast your not an ******* about it.

Got my taxes something back today for $185.
Sent back $50 to my friend who I owe.
$80 I will play for live today.

The rest i deposit online and RN got a roll of $105.

This is the situation, lets ****ing GO.

u got the ability to get money to gamble with

Indeed I do.
Busted live cash game, bled down to $40 and got it all in pre with AQo v Jj two boards no hitttu.

Now spending some quality time with merciful mother and father before unleashing a hellush online grind.

break update...
had 115, burned 15 on PLO ZOOM.

$25bb left in tournaments.
gl me 😃

break update.
we sattes in to a big $82 tournament The Epilogue its called $75k gtd.
got a stack in the season wrap up 5.50, and had some 10 bucks on PLO which i shiftily gave away.

lets focus now and ****ing do the work and bring home a $10k+ score 😀

And we busto. Bled away in the $82 not finding a single ****ing hand in the entire tournament.
Jammed T6hh for 2.2bb straight into pocket tens and for some reason Q9o overcalled villains 10bb jam (poker is dead () ).

Now we busto to the ****ing bone and not knee deep, wish it was knee deep but NECK DEEP in debts.

At this moment in time I find no way out honestly. Man, this absolutely ****ing sucks

Going around in our 4 room apartment with my hands in my pockets.
Cant sleep.

Honestly I dont feel that bad despite the situation I am in. Somehow I am a bit cheerful.

There is no way of getting any money the coming weeks.
Nobody left to borrow from.
Paid back my friend 'D' $50 which I promised him to, and I kept my promise.
Asked 'K' if he wanted $50 bucks back earlier and he said no.

Man im sitting here on a chair in the kitchen and thinking, how different my life would be if some key hands in my life ran out differently.

If I only had played better when I had s $2k+ roll and kept my BRM on point instead of 12 tabling and taking big shots.

Man, I can not blame anyone but myself can I.
I am basicly talking to myself right now.

Whats hilarious is also that a girl who quit talking to me because she wanted to hook up with her ex again now wrote to me and wants to meet. Like comeone, wtf I am not some ****ing 2nd hand choice.

Another blast from the past added me on Instagram today, whats wrong with chicks?

Yeah guys /rant over.
Feel free to post anything anyone except puntmeister.

Kthxbai

Report above post please Gtfo ou of my thead

Ok, so no poker today live or online.
And god ****ing damn it does it suck.
I have worked out already, now I am at home with my whole mind body and spirit itching for poker.

Degens gonna degen.

Congrats on 5 stars (idk when you got it) Its a sign that you will turn it around, glgl.