Left Home, Moved to Vegas! Pman Presents The Ride

Nah, time for you to go to GA. What was your thought process behind making a blog on an advantage gambling site and then over sharing your life enough that every poster knows you are not a winner and have a gambling addiction? We know what winning poker and slots play looks like and you are not doing it, no amount of modding is going to cover up the truth. What is your motivation to lie under the guise of positivity?

Yeah i've done that over a dozen times, mark basically told me he's not going to moderate my thread. Haha. What a joek

No, I haven't put in any volume yet.

Basically the same as the guy in this song

mark basically told me to eff off. prob gonna quit this site again.

I tried guys, i really did. To much misery.

No Volume... status quo.

Why not?

Bankroll issues and a few personal things going on IRL that I was not expecting. Was supposed to start a job on Jan 1st and its been indefinitely delayed.

pman - i highly suggest you check out this thread

https://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/174/p...

this is his op

majorly failed at poker - after many years of playing he was still living out of his car

but he stuck with it and improved massively, plugged a lot of leaks in his game - became one of the top nl200 regs (i think it was nl200) and even got a warehouse job just for some stability

he came under intense scrutiny - i'm sure many times i said some pretty horrendous things to him

but nobody ever had to question his drive and effort and it eventually worked out a bit and he's now fairly well established in life

this thread is 5 years old, you aren't playing poker, you aren't working - everything is an excuse

yes, the people here are extremely toxic to you

yes, some of them are very deranged and way out of line

as we both know, the lvl blogs thread is incredibly toxic

but you can't possibly expect to show up here, where it's a lot of people who treat the game very seriously and or are professionals at it and not really once ever show any intention at all of moving forward and expect to be taken seriously

i remember when you first showed up and mentioned that you thought tournies may be good for you i ended up staking like $50 for a series (don't freak out guys it was no markup) - i sent you a bunch of resources for studying for the tourney transition, talked about a bunch of stuff that should come up often like knowing what your shoving range is when you are a short stack

you then spent the next week leading up to the tourney doing 24 hour video game marathon challenges on twitch - something that immediately told me - ok, never stake this guy again - he's playing on other peoples money and not taking it seriously

this isn't about the money, i don't care about the $50, that's why i staked you with that, i had no expectation of turning a profit - but it was incredibly disappointing to see not only were you doing nothing to prepare to transition to a new version of the game but also unaware enough to broadcast to the world that's exactly what you were doing

you then didn't even play the series and tapped out after one or two tournies - and your vlog describing hand histories made it incredibly obvious you didn't even spend 10 minutes looking at push/fold charts as you repeatedly said stuff like "i had A7o in mp with 6 bb and didn't know what to do" - you should absolutely have known whether or not that's a shove or fold at that stack size - but you didn't because you didn't care nor prepare

now i will say one thing about you - you are a good guy, and where many would have just said to their anonymous backers that they played the series and busted, you contacted me and arranged a refund of the remaining amount

you're a good guy - but unless you show some effort - this is not where you're ever going to find any joy

Wow. I had turned off my computer for the night but saw this in my emails and felt the need to respond immediately.

I remember that $50 stake, I don't remember what series i was selling to or what i played, but i do remember your name and that you bought a piece. You're right. I don't recall ever opening your push fold charts or taking any advice you said seriously. While it is extremely hard over text, i hope you understand the tone of this message is being written with all sincerity. How can i blame you for never wanting to stake me again? I was immature and egotistical. I didn't need an internet man's charts; I'm pman. Oh how funny.

I'm not happy with my poker results over the last 5 years. I want to do better. While there have been a few weeks, or even a couple months, at times where i have been motivated and truly studying my game, i can't say that it's something i do often. I don't want to be lazy. I don't want to make excuses. Yet when i can, i choose the lazy path, and when i am confronted with the difficulties of life, i make excuses.

I thank you for telling the situation honestly, and noting i refunded you what was owed. I am extremely proud to say that the entire time i have been in poker I have never done anyone wrong. Not a single person can say "pman scammed me" or "pman stole from me" or "pman lied / misled me". While some of the aforementioned toxic people may say that me selling at markup, or selling at all is a scam, i think you and i can agree it is not. at the extreme end of things, if i am the worst player in the world, and i make an agreement with someone, it is our agreement. the EV of things are always up for debate. I can certainly say I have never intended to scam or do anyone wrong. Your compliments and acknowledgement of that make me feel appreciated, something i haven't felt in a long time on this forum.

If we go back 5 years to January of 2021, when I first moved to Vegas and started my vlog, we can assume my poker ship was sinking of leaks. By now, i should be sailing smoothly, if i had a stronger work ethic and followed some good intentioned peoples advice, such as yours. Unfortunately, we can both see that my ship is in fact still sinking. While one or two holes may have been plugged, the big holes have been left unattended to. I intend to change that. I am saying this for myself, as my word means nothing, and actions speak louder than words. I'm excited for 2026. While 2025, mostly the latter half, did go terribly for me, I plan to makeup for it this year. I am going to buy some kind of training software (most likely gtowizard mtt) and (bare with me) put in the work. I love poker, and I have had a very unique life and set of circumstances from 2014-2020 that has allowed me to afford a lackadaisical lifestyle. My time is running out. It is time for me to truly become a pro, or sit back, play recreationally, and get a job. FWIW, I was supposed to be working now and making good money. Unfortunately, two large video editing gigs fell through, on top of a customer support job being delayed.

I'm not quitting until I give it my all. I suppose it is up to me to figure out if i am capable of giving it my all, and what that looks like. Some people may read this and troll, and say same old pman, lying to himself and his thread. I hope you don't view it that way: or if you do, I hope you keep an open mind and let my actions speak for themselves. I think that's all i have to say right now...

TLDR / current goals
- study the eff out of this game i love, and get good
- play less video games, play more poker
- build a bankroll to grind online lowstakes MTTs, hopefully transitioning to lowstakes live ones
- don't go busto this wsop
- don't make excuses
- don't feed the trolls
- continue to be a man of my word
- find other sources of income, whether it be video editing, customer support, etc...things that can pay my bills and give me wiggle room to handle variance
- don't punt

As for the guy's thread, I have bookmarked it to look at tomorrow. Thank you, RickRoll, and may you have a wonderful 2026.

No. I said I wasn't going to be the Positivity Police or be an babysitter for adults. When you report a post that crosses the line of civility or breaks site rules I'll be happy to moderate it, as I did Franz when he made the nasty comments about your dad. In the meantime, if it's something you just don't like, ignore them. I can instruct you on how to add posters to your ignore list if you need me to.

Yeah, the Rich Checkmaker/Simple Rick thread is a good example. Both Rich and Pman have gotten stoned a lot, both played llsnl and had 5 figure scores, with Rich hitting that bad beat jackpot, and both have punted off in a 10k event. Rich has a lot more mental toughness driving a bus for all those years, having all those family issues as well as a tough upbringing without family support. I mean Rich threatened to fight people in his thread at commerce and challenged people to mma matches for souls, and it wasn’t just talk. Pman can’t even handle constructive criticism without melting down and responding meekly about posters filling this thread with misery, which is sad because gambling addicts as seen in this thread live pretty hollow lives.

Rich even says he didn’t study poker that much, he just grinded endless hours at commerce low stakes cash games, that strengthened his game and actually made him a better tourney player as well. Pman doesn’t grind hard and always thinks he should be playing higher stakes than he is capable of and just wants to gamble for a big score.

Im not trying to be negative or rude when i say this but i dont think poker is for you.

You hit a huge 45k score out of nowhere, you should have used that momentum to really understand the fundamentals, theory, and how to use software to parlay that into getting better.

You need to learn how to play cash games, tournaments in my opinion are a lot tougher to be consistent with from my perspective as a cash game player. There's a lot more razor thin spots and having to win flips which both are marginal, the only upside is that no one knows how to play a lot of spots in tournament poker given that there are so many more unique spots in tournaments then cash games.

You don't have strong fundamentals of poker tbh or the natural street smarts (which realistically only comes from playing millions of hands and wouldn't apply to NLH anyway) and most people don't have this understanding of poker but you had a huge opportunity with having a windfall of 45k to actually improve and work on that.

Also you didn't have good BRM this combined with not having talent/skills is pretty much a guaranteed loss.

You need to play around with variance calculators and most people don't because live poker is so hard to evaluate with sigma/theta or standard of deviation is because there is no software that grabs your hands, PFR/3! etc., and pots played from live poker and gives you the direct input number to solve for this equation. Most people get disillusioned by this fact, its better to make the assumption that you wont run above ev, that way you can plan for bad scenarios

gobbley geek my friend! long time no talk. thanks for stopping by again.

I agree with you 100% I need to get some income asap. I'm on top of things, that's why i never seem to go broke. I'm always doing stupid odd jobs (pet sitting ,video editing, some +EV sports stuff with friends, whatever comes my way). I am 30. And bald. Oof.

Yeah, i can see the concern one would have with someone like me binking 5 figures. I definitely got lucky in a few key spots that tournament, but i played pretty damn well too. Again, you can't expect to come in top 10 every 1000+ player field you play. Why'd it have to be the one I sold half myself in?? Haha. I ended 2023 with just over 20k in profit iirc, which was great.

I've not shared my overall LLSNL cash game results. I am a lifetime loser live (2/5 and under, mainly 1/2 1/3) and a lifetime winner online (100NL and under). Thanks again for stopping by, hope you're well.

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Just kidding, lol. You're not being rude. Unfortunately I did only have 45% of myself in that tournament, as I was planning to sell around half myself in every tournament that summer. I should've gotten better absolutely. I've gotten better at cash games, but still much prefer tournaments. The variance is tougher, sure, but tournaments are so much more my style. I like the ever changing dynamics, it makes me pay attention. I don't mind folding for 2 hours in an MTT, but folding for 2 hours in a cash game is something I struggle with.

I somewhat disagree; i have some fundamentals and street smarts in poker. Again, i didn't keep the whole 45k; i got 45%. Which is still nice. But money goes fast. And you're correct my BRM was ****.

I appreciate your comment

Im sorry if i sound harsh, poker is hard these days not because of talent or skill like i mentioned in a previous comment several pages ago, its hard because the skills it takes to work alone is much more demanding in a lot of ways. Or you need to be a special person who has mental issues i think to succeed or you need to be incredibly blessed by the lord.

People downplay this so hard because EGO, everything is about EGO in america the sooner you realize this the faster we can move on.

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You sort of have to ******max in poker but you need to actually have the ability to play well. That was my first inclination when i saw this thread, (when i say ******max i mean be delusional and illogical in aspirations but not extreme like Tim Walz) but then when i ended up reading it the outcome was not what i was expecting.

See thats what seprates actual winners from losers.

MTT spots you need to execute far more precisely then cash games, but that doesnt mean you sit there and do nothing for 2 hours in a cash game, unless you absolutely know every single thing which you don't...

Especially for live poker i would just be talking to boomers at my table and busting their balls blue, its good sales and helps me sleep at night psychologically

You don't sound harsh, you're right. I'm pretty special IMO and def have mental issues though. We'll see what happens. i like the r word maxing. i dun goofed along the way. time for change.

thanks man, yeah. lots to work on and unpack

I'm sorry, and I know that that was two disjointed thoughts, but you writing "I didn't play any poker because I didn't start a job" is unintentionally hilarious. You not having other things to do is why you SHOULD have had a ton of time for poker.

My understanding is that the long-running rule of PG&C (and House of Blogs) is that if an OP doesn't want a poster(s) in their thread, that that was valid and that mods would do their best to facilitate that. Is that not the case anymore?

I tend to agree. Not playing any poker for half a month when you're sitting at home doing nothing is wild stuff. Pman, it's clear that you don't really like poker (you'd be playing it non stop if you did), and that poker isn't really a large source of profit for you. Those are both fine and valid things, that nobody should make fun of you for. Maybe you should try to find something that you are passionate about, and follow that to see if you can monetize it in some way. Continuing to say "Yeah but I COULD be a pro player!" while not playing and going through what little money you have left had to just be exacerbating your anxiety.

Bro you told me i punted 30 years of my life do you know how that sounds? That was OOL. I had no money to play poker!

Mark dislikes me and is looking for a different mod to "babysit pman".

HOW DO YOU MULTI QUOTE??? i seem to have forgotten

I'm not quitting poker, not now not tomorrow not ever, so please don't even suggest it again. Waste of both our time

It seems like you take one small snippet of what people say and hyper fixate on that as a way to ignore the bulk/context of what's being said. Which is odd.
But no, I don't know how it sounds, maybe you can explain how you took it and how it feels and you can start contextualizing your emotions instead of running away every time you start to feel? I'm all ears, because I'm guessing you took it in a way that I didn't mean it (and you obviously chose not to read the bulk of what I said to get context for it), so I guess I'm sorry if it meant something to you that wasn't there. My point remains though, if you spend the next 30 years doing what you did in the previous 30 years, you're going to be in the exact same spot at 60 which is a WAY WORSE SPOT! So sitting back and saying "yolo" "whatever" I do what I want" is great in theory but you can't realistically expect to be anywhere other than where you are with that mindset, right?

You have $0.00 in your bank account? No savings? No investments? No crypto? No one to borrow from? Can't get a loan? No credit cards? No assets to sell? Can't go to the blood bank? Can't get an advance at work? Can't hustle up more dogs to walk? More videos to edit? Can't go on facebook marketplace and offer your services?

And not to be misunderstood, I'm pretty libertarian when it comes to people doing whatever the hell they want to do, but since you brought it up: in the time that you had no money to play poker did you find money to buy weed/beer/fast food, or gamble with?

The rules should be applied evenly, you're in the right there.

You can click the little "plus" button next to the "quote" button on the bottom of each post that you'd like to quote, or do it manually with the quote and unquote tags.

Ty for being considerate for my time, but I've finished my sesh and have a little bit of time to kill before I get dinner started and am current on all my shows. Maybe I'll play some video games, have you tried Plague Breaker? It's a pretty good little roguelike if you enjoy those.

How much have you played today? Yesterday? Is being a "Pro Poker Player" something that you consider important to you? Do you feel like it validates you? Can you be a pro even if you don't play poker? Is it a state of mind? And actually, if you read my long post to you beyond me saying that you punted the first 30 years of your life, you'd know that I didn't say you should quit poker, I suggested you'd have a better time in life if it was something you did part time to supplement your income.

Pman why don't you just try moving down in stakes and playing online cash at 10nl or something?

yeah i'm kind of autistic / r tarded sometimes, sorry. last few weeks been going on not much sleep. it's hard to explain emotions in a forum over text. sometimes i dont even know how i feel.

i don't drink beer or any alcohol (coming up on 4 years sober) and i spend annually around $500 on weed. i have been taking a tolerance break to see how it affects my sleep. so far not so good. i haven't had fast food in months.

i agree mark should apply the same rules to everyone but i suppose grudges gonna grudge

Never played plague breaker, kind of sounds like this one game i did play though...darkest dungeon

I didn't play today. I didn't play yesterday. I haven't slept in 30 hours. Being a pro poker player is my destiny. Yes it validates me. No i can't be a pro if i'm not a profitable poker player. It's not a state of mind, its playing a game for a majority of your income. I agree with you about getting a job / supplemental income. Perhaps that first line about punting 30 years turned off my brain.

how did your session go? i usually have a great time in life. i'm an optimistic person and am very blessed.

sorry if i answered things out of order