The fitness well

Welcome in here bro, Yeah real blunt honesty is the way I roll.

Its probably not that because I took two months off august-october 2024 and it didnt help me jack **** so I really dont know whats wrong with me...

it's the simplest thing ever:
1. No contest coming up: Testosterone, growth hormone, insulin. Masteron/primo/eq and/or AI to manage estrogen, completely optional.
2. Contest coming up: testosterone, masteron, clenbuterol, t3, caffeine, GLP1 (optional), trenbolone (optional), last 4 weeks remove testosterone and add your choice of anavar, winstrol, superdrol, halotestin or some combination.

no ebook necessary.

that's quite hefty isn't it on or off season?
idk what to compare with
i did primo,tren,test,clen and winstrol in 2023...

today is a ****ing rest day,
worked today for 7 hours which is a great feat.
felt like **** but I got really pissed at myself for being tired so i dragged myself out of the bed.

i killed my poker journal because my irl name is basically my 2+2 name with one letter difference lol.
and i have shared a lot of ****ing degenic miserable stuff in my journal and i don't want anybody finding out about that - lol.

but yeah rn im hopelessly waiting for a potential loan from my younger cousin who has turned me down about 5 times...
he claims 'no money' but the earns probably thrice as much as me.
my pay check for this coming 25th is $1100. and i got like a lot of loans to pay back, will have like 200 bucks left which for all i will put on the pokers....

The "/"s indicate "or". So you can run test solo with gh and insulin, and then optionally add in one of eq/mast/primo. Adding all of them would just result in crushed estrogen.

Anywhere from 500mg-2,500mg test 5-10iu gh and 6-8iu pre and post humalog would be a great offseason cycle for somebody at low bodyfat who doesn't aromatize very much.

Bolded: Maybe don't do that. Buy some food and try to get a gig as a personal trainer maybe?

man everyone keeps telling me i should become a PT ill go for it once i have 2k to put on a course.

today i hit arms

arms
:
dumbellcurls:
12kg x8
16kg x8
20kg x8
20kg x10
20kg x12

machine curl
70 lbs x8 +50lbs x5
60lbs x10
60lbs x12

triceps pushdown:
increments in 8 reps down to maximum which i can't remember lol

after that I did 5 minutes of running even tho i put in 10 mins into the machine.
a small W nonetheless

right now im cooking lol, sattied into a 215 met on stars. ik this is h/f but as stated my blog/journal is killed off and yeah i can't myself sharing that lol

KTHXBAIII

Busted teähe $215 with great sorrow.

Went for another workout, side delts only

Dumbbell lateral raises:
12kg x12
14kg x12
16kg x12
14kg x12
12kg x12

Lateral raise machine:
90lbs x12
100lbs x12
125lbs x12

And oh I forgot I started with 5 minutes of running on the treadmill.

hit a measly leg workout today.

Legs:
leg extension top set 230lbs x5 +drop down in weights another 5 reps

Lunges:
8kg x10
8kg x12

and yeah I ran for 7 minutes before the workout, which was good.

will be doing grappling and no go jiu jitsu in two weeks so I am trying to get in some conditioning so i don't embarrass myself..

i swore to myself to never take any PEDs again but i had 9 tabs of Ligandrol 7.5mg each left in the drawers so now I took one and will proceed to take one a day until they run out.

kthxbai lol

Hit a decent chest workout today.

Chest:

Flat dumbbell press:
32kg x15

Decline dumbbell press:
32kg x12

Inclined dumbbell press:
32kg x12

Dips:
x8
x10
x12
x15
x10

Over and ****ing out

Man my parents are on me to quit gambling.
SCOOP is coming up soon and I live for the chance to bink something big.
But they see me as this big degenerate (which I really am in many ways) that doesnt own a penny.

Life is pretty ****ing miserable tbh.
Took pictures but they all look like ****.

Quit PEDs but won't quit gambling. You are doing it backwards, homie. One makes you swole rock hard baseball bat boners slaying left and right, one makes you broke and depressed.

Oh Ive wanted to ask you about that lol - whats your relation to poker?

Man poker brought me through a very tough time that is still tough.
Brings me hope and joy at times and sometimes misery and heartbreak.

I almost went to the gym today.
Went basicly outside of the gym and returned.
Didnt really feel like it.
Might go back in two hours and try again.
Will be hitting back in that case.

quit like 2 weeks before black friday in 2009 when i was around age 20. went to school to do a normal job.

i lived in one major mahjong gambling hub and live “sorta in macau” now. i still don't gamble.

damn, you seem like a bright guy you could have made a lot of money.

today I hit BACK idk why I wrote that in caps but yeah I hit BACK - Lol xD

Back:

Wide grip lateral pulldowns:
top set 90kg x5+60kgx5

T bar rows:
+20kg x20
+45kg x15
+80kg x11

Assisted pull-ups:
x12
x10
x12

Yeah that was it.

just got my salary and bought some ephedrine supplement.
hope my heart will be ok, my EKG scan apparently came back fine so I am ready to ****ing go for it a bit.
its also yohimbine included in it and a bunch of other stuff, paid 40 euro for 100 caps which is a ****ing bargain.

Good stuff. Ephedrine is safe and well tolerated. Liter version of clen with more stim effect but less beta 2 stimulation.

Regarding "Why don't you gamble?"

At an early age I had the insight to realize that how you make your money is as if not more important than how much money you make. Maybe I could earn barely 6 figs per year playing 4 days of 5/10 NLHE for 5 hours a day 5 days per week. Maybe I could even earn a bunch more hanging out in Mahjong or underground Chengdu poker games for 12 hour "shifts" late at night in total disruption of circadian rythm surrounded by tobacco and alcohol. But you're introducing a lot of variance and a solitary lifestyle that includes relatively little positive human interaction (esp with the online route). This is going to negatively influence your happiness much more than a salary reduction but a more enjoyable workday you find meaning, fulfillment, and even "fun" in.

A lot of us were attracted to poker as youths because we were low social status because of our looks, height, non-neurotypicality, and things that were often outside of our control. So when we were young we loved the idea of a job where we could stay home and work without having to be around people because being around people had caused us a lot of mental pain as youths. But we didn't have the insight to realize why being around people was painful and just assumed we are "too high iq to be around normies" or "introverted" rather than "you look like crap so people treat you badly and ascribe low status to you".

If I were offered a social job around people I like for only 40k usd/yr that allowed me to sleep with circadian rythm and eat healthy home cooked food, I'd choose it very readily over a 120k/yr high income variance night shift job with no humanity no circadian rythm and bullshit unhealthy food.

got ya

did outside shoulders and backside shoulders today:

Dumbell lateral raises:
12kg x15
12kg x15
12kg x15

Lateral raise machine:
90 lbs x12
100lbs x12
120lbs x12

Facepulls 3 sets
Reverse peck deck 2 sets

over and out.

How long do these workouts take you? less than 30 minutes?

This log is good evidence for the idea that "you don't need to train as hard as you think you do. Stimulate, don't annihilate".

On average 30 minutes.
Past two years I havent been to the gym for more than an hour.

Yeah I agree on that Philosophy, but to be quite Frank if I was 100% physically I would add 20% more volume to my workout.
With that said I will from now on force myself to do 20% more in the gym.

The fat burner stack is coming probably in 1-2 days from on then cardio will be mandatory.

Rn omw to work, which is cool because I have only worked for 3 days this month.
Had a real good sweat yesterday in a $530 bounty builder which I sattied into.
Busted kq v qj aipf which stung.
But its amazing how quick we recover.
After a nights sleep I am not at all devastated anymore.

Kthxbai

Well, lol.
Bought an ephedrine/caffeine/yohimbine/much more fat burners-in-one stack which I cant even ****ing use.

I will be doing drug screening in order to keep my drivers license and I should have ****ing thought of this before but I cant use ephedrine because it can cause false positives on amphetamines....

Well, besides that I ****ing feel like **** after taking one pull. Heart beating out of my chest and now I am nauxeous.

That was 60$ straight in the bin lol, and got nobody to donate it to either.

Hit chest today on my Ephedrine stack pill which made me nauseous as ****. Skipped the dips because my heart was beauting out of my chest.

Chest:

Peck deck:
Top det 230lbs x8 PR

Flat dumbbell press:
32kg x10

Inclined dumbbell press:
32kg x10

Decline Dumbbell press:
32kg x10

So Yeah one top set and 3 sets of Dumbbell presses with different angles.
If I was feeling like my old self I would ****ing do 3 sets of each but im really compensated right now.

I used to take something similar before I played rugby.

Can really get your heart going - I found them brilliant for the game itself but it would take me several hours to calm down afterwards

You must have been ****ing unstoppable then bro.

Today I hit a very measly biceps workout

Biceps:

Dumbbell curl:
12kg x10
16kg x10
20kg x10
20kg x10
20kg x10

Machine curl:
60lbs x10
70lbs x10
70lbs x10

And that was ****ing it.

Such a waste of SARMS.
Had as mentioned 9 tabs left which I took, one left now. Barely took advantage of them.
Rested for two days, and just did shitty workouts

Poker being miserable as **** is taking a toll on me aswell, Im in deep debts, the collectors might visit my house at any ****ing time.

Chose to Gamble with what I had left in the hope of binking something big but I ended up burning it all to the ground.

Hit two workouts today.
Feeling absolutely miserable.

Chest:

Peck deck:
Top set 230 lbs x10 PR

Flat dumbell press:
32kg x10

Inclined dumbell press:
32kg x9

Decline Dumbbell press:
32kg x8

Dips:
x8
x10
x12

Ok.

Shoulders (outside only):
12kg x15
12kg x15
18kg x6 + 12kg x6

Lateral raise machine:
90lbs x12
110lbs x12
130lbs x12

My shape looks absolutely shitty but I will post a picture anyhow

if that's shitty then you're doing pretty well in. keep it going!

gym looks dark and quiet

Yeah, this.

Just take a moment walking around...anywhere and see how everyone else is doing.