Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)

I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Singings words of wisdom,
Let It Be.

Today is going to be great. Despite taking ativan again, I obtained better sleep than the prior evening and I'm ready to ****ing go.

*Prays the news doesn't pry open my emotional floodgates all day along again*

Oh, You Oughta Know by Now.

Days like today reinforce a reminder to not use drugs.

I just was thinking about how peaceful I feel. And then the imagery of a low resolution Flight Simulator plane making a perfect landing entered my field of vision for a second.

I was playing poker when a tired-attack hit and I hopped into bed. I was so tired it felt uncomfortable lying down...lol...and then it hit me. I fell asleep for 2 minutes!!! And I had a vivid dream!!!

I got stabbed in the head.

It's Friday night and he's all alone
She's a million miles away
He's dressed to kill, but the TV's on
She's connected to the sound

To be honest, if someone claimed Coldplay as the best band in the world, I would have no problem with that.

Incredible photograph. I am mourning this one.

Left: Boris Spassky
Right: Robert Fischer

One last night with Ativan.

I slept naturally for 2 minutes earlier today. Had a vivid nightmare and a knife went into my skull.

Pretty cool to flip back through this blog and see my writing palpably improve.

My style should have some kind of unviersal appeal. The phonetics are pleasant even to me. It was David Sklansky who gave me the most important fundamental for writing - keep it as simple as possible. That way, the greatest number of people will be able to understand.

Intrucive thoughts have become almost entirely optimistic. It's as though an army of underwear gnomes parade through my frontal cortex with megaphones telling me I'm great.

I bought the new Monster Hunter game, it is in the queue.
I have a thing with video games, where I play briefly and then never again.
And if they're challenging I give up pretty quickly.
Figured there wont be any AAA titles released in the next few months.

I cancelled my WoW subscription. I started playing again over X-mas break, and played for at least 50 hours that week. All my buddies were off work and it was a fun time. Maybe I'll make that a yearly tradition.

Working out has really taken off. I forced it at first - time passing on a treadmill like a single column egg timer - and now it is a habit that I enjoy. But yea, it's been only treadmill work which seems like a fine starting point. 50min in the morning, 50 again at night. The longterm goal is to ramp up to 90/90 - a total of three hours per day. Luckily I have the time....the old me might bemoan sinking so much of the day into exercise - because the truth is I have to work out extra hard due to being on medication.

The modern-me knows that these meds give me a chance at life and the extra work needed is a big effin deal.

Fantasy baseball is starting soon.

I'm going to use an LLM for reasearch and at the draft if it is allowed by my sister - the commisioner.