Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)

I've tried quitting pot many times. Sometimes I give up quickly, other times I last a month and fall into a depression.

This time around I'm feelfing substantically better than prior tries.

I think this is the best thing I can do for myself.

I also think it's going to stick this time around.

Because my mind has reached a point in recovery where I don't just feel, "not sick", but also incredibly capable and balanced....I think the temptation to go back on weed won't ever materialize.

I won't quit forever. When I see my friend in Vegas next we'll smoke half a pound and have the best time. But I will be wise enough to not fall back into the habit of it.

I'm starting to fade. Need to let the Ativan cook a little bit longer before collapsing into my busted up bed.

Good Shabbos, everyone.

The Rickroll knows just what I needed.

What do you think, Rick? My blog as >30k views and you are virtually the only poster to engage.

Buncha pussies. All y'all.

I just slept for an hour following my morning workout.

It's the most amount of natural sleep I've seen since a week ago Saturday.

Feels amazing.

Monster Hunter Wilds is almost finished downloading.

I have a love/hate relationship with videogames.

As a kid, I was gaga for them. I remember there was CD demo to some shitty game at the bottom of a cereal box and I was thrilled to have it.

My skills aren't what they used to be. I was the best on my block growing up. The apex of my playing days was when I decided to beat Ocarina of Time in a single day. It took 14 hours; friends came over to visit and bring me snacks and cheer me on; my sister was there for the entire time.

I lose interest pretty quickly these days as well.

I still really like playing Tetris. I'm not super great, but I know I could be if I dedicated myself.

From Vishy himself.

@All-inMclovin

The only italian place near me that doesn't suck sells pasta dishes for $30. **** that, went to the grocery store and spent

$30 on ingredients.

- One box of Rigatoni (because poker is rigged)
- One box of Shells
- Little Italy in the Bronx brand ALLA VODKA SAN MARZANO sauce
- Tomato and Ricotta Pesto
- Portobello Shrooms w/Roasted Red Pepper

I have no idea what I'm doing.

Guys!!!!!!

I was rolling around my bedsheets with the itis when all of a sudden I realized 2 hours had passed!!!

I can sleep again!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

AND AFTER
YOU HAD THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE
FLAT LINED AND LED TOWARD THE LIGHT
YOU'LL DESPAIR THE WRECKAGE AND FIND
NO ONE GAVE A **** THAT YOU DIED!!!!

One of the all-time best punk rock songs.

Blink's catalogue for good songs is enormous.

I'm seriously glad I didn't commit suicide.

2010 I held a bottle of lexapro to my lips.

I had been going through treatment resistant depression for three years.

Something in my brain shutoff, and I was done.

It was only when I tasted the bitter powder on the rim of the container did I finally think, "This can't be a good idea."

Things at times would become much harder over the next 12 years.

Stuff I wouldn't wish on almost any other human.

Ever see Pan's Labrynth? It was like that but exponentially worse.

I beat it though. I beat its ass bad.

And now today, 15 years later, I feel like a world champion.

And someday I will be.

I posted TITS in 4life and it felt amazing. Thanks Max!

i am broke but ready

Don't worry Rick. I am handsomely rewarding all who post in my blog someday with a $100K brick.

I had a really nice rest last night.
In-and-out of sleep, naturally, of course, as expected, and good.
Had another nightmare. The room I was living in became infested with bugs beneath my box spring.
I'll take it!!!!!!