A raging fish on a heater

my next pay check will be max 800 bucks and not enough to cover my debts so i am cooked anyhow.

poker is my only way ****ing ****ing way out of this ****ing misery

Had a run in the $16.50 bounty builder but I tilted it off.
Busted a6o vs KQ for 200bb pot.

lost 100 bucks live. not really fml worthy w/e.
lost twopair vs two pair. w/e not fml worthy.

ran up 8 bucks to 18 bucks on plo zoom - lol.
registered satty to the 109 cool down for 11 buckeroskis. zoom ploed up the change to 22 bucks and registered a 16.50 sat to the 109 fenomeno - lfg?

got 2.05 bucks left in zoom aiming for a 7.5 natty.
as we speaking lost a pot bvb in the 16.50 - really to be honest - not fml worthy.

idk everything sucks but today im in a good ****ing mood.
got a date for friday with a super nice girl but i am as ****ing busto as you can get.

asked a friend for a loan and he roasted the living hell out of me and my life choices - lol.
as we speaking busted the 16.50 sat to the 109 but what the ****ing ever we still got some hope 😃

we allin with qq vs aa and kk lol and we BUSTO !!!!!

Got the red light to play live tonight.

0.00 usd on my stars account.

Worked today so I am atleast feeling cheerful - no fml.

okay yeah F M L ****ING DELUXE.

I got a ****ing date on friday and im as busto as it ****ING GETS AND nobody wants to ****ING BORROW ME MONEY especially my ****ing piece of **** ex best friend is just ****ing roasting me and he is a mother ****ing piece of ****.

F M L

Did you tell her that she’s dating a loOoOoser? 😃

No ****ing way in bluffimg all the way to the hilt.

Got $30 bucks from my childhood friend R.
Will patch it up with a loan from my okasan (mother).

So Yeah - we cooking lol.

Got the green lights to play my own money today on loan - live.
Wish me the best of ****ing luck its DO OR DIE.

Lost 20 bucks. Not fml.
Loaned 20 bucks and have 20 bucks in ny pocket.

Thats enough for food for me and the girl tomorrow.

Okasan (mother) will provide me with another 50-60 bucks for the bar.

We kind of rolling, barely - lol.

40 bucks in cash and 62 bucks on my card - we cooking lmao.

I wont drink tonight because man i barely get drunk and when I do i just puke so ill buy the girl some drinks and thats it.

Date went ****ing wonderful!
She a good girl not a bad one so we took it slow and only hugged and I massaged her arms.

Only spent $40. Got $60 left on my account to play with!!!!!!

Got the green lights to play live - wooo!!!!
Lets ****ing win 1k usd shall we???

ended up playing a 250 bucks mystery bounty.
didnt get dealt a single hand blinded down to 3bb jammed AJs utg got called by 23s and got rekt.
ran my 13 bucks something up to 36 and ran it down to 12.
now im playing a 11 dollar satellite to the 109 big fenomeno.

yeah that's it.

and we busto surprise

its sunday and we hardcore busto.... nobody to loan money from and we ****ing anti-cooking.
restless as ****, IDK what to ****ing do. already went to the gym (check my journal over there for another side of me) and now i GOT ****ING NOTHING TO DO..

had 60 bucks i should have just ****ing saved them for today sunday instead of punting it off on friday and saturday........................

not really fml because im decently high in spirits but a small fml.

deposited 12 buckaroskis and now we got 5 tables open.
l
f
g
kthxbai

edit:
took a 200mg caffeine tablet and with that busted one of my tables. maybe not the smartest idea considering that im working 2morrow but i start at 9.50 tho.....

and we raw busto.
i played like utter dogs hit in the bounty builder 2.2 had a 110bb stack but i punted it all off because i don't just GIVE A **** when i got like 2 bucks on my account and playing a 2 dollar tourney that will get me ****ing nowhere.

i want to borrow money from som1 on my messenger list just considering how low i will ****ing go...

edit: no man got 2 noes. see my elder cousin online but i don't want to ask him for ****ing money F M L

Loaned $50 from brush. Got the red lights to play live though lol. Full table.

Lets ****ing GO!!!! BOUNTY BUILDER SERIES!!!

yeah man that went quick.
played a bunch of stuff busted everything.
satte in to the big 33 busted that one in 3 hands.
gg

Brush like crush(girl)?

Lol would never lend from a woman that isnt mother.

Poker brush.

So I lended 15 bucks from mother for food, which I obviously deposited insta.
Ran it up to 30ish bucks on PLO zoom and then ran it all down.

I did something super degenerate and miserable which I wont even write but Yeah now im off to the plug....