A raging fish on a heater

Mini swings but they are real.
Got 10 bucks, a $11 sat to a $109 to a $1050 (watch me make it) and a $7.50 to the big $109 atm.

Not really cooking anywhere but atleast we got hope.

edit: busting so quick we can make the edit. only got a 5.50 left to a 55 to a 530.... 12bb and a dream. will the busto post be made in the same edit?^

who the **** knows

edit2:
yes box we busted every single thing and every single penny.
on top of that we got the super red lights for whole week

oh we got the offer to play 100% of ourselves for $100 but I asked too loan it in cash in order to deposit online.
waiting for answer
swings are ****ing rough man

My ****ing guy I will try to pileupthecash$$$€€.
Atm at the club getting my $100 to deposit online, then back home AND START GRINDING!!!

Miss in communication, got a loan for $100 to play cash game. Atm at the club, wish me the best.

Okay so just busted with QQ against K8 for a small $120 pot but still its ****ing all I ****ing have and it would matter so much for me to ****ing hold. Even deeper in debt now and I am somehow still smiling.

Like I am boiling at the same time over my cheap ****ing piece of **** cousin that cant even borrow me $15 when he sits on cash stupid ****ing cockroach rat.

Man FML, I am probably done and ****ing dusted for until tomorrow. Why Cant I just ****ing hold when its for my ****ing net worth for ****s sakesssssssssss

And dealer made a ****ing misstake she never asked if we want to run it twice, and I always ****ing run it twice but it was such a small ****ing pot that it was embarrassing to make a fuss about it so I just grabbed my parka and went back home.

I got no friends left to borrow from, FML.

Hey, big fan of the thread. Listen man, you're in a tough spot but I think if you follow this advice you can make it in poker because of how much you seem to want it. Next paycheck, deposit 50$ on stars and grind no higher then 0.55$s and this is still very bad bankroll management and you haven't even proven you can win against these guys, no offense, so grind it up until you have a 1001$ then take a shot at 1$, if you drop at 999 because of life expanse or poker loss go back to 0.55. Keep on grinding and studying until you have lots of money. That's it, never deviate from that and you'll have 400$ then 5k then 60k,then.. But if you don't follow this advice and don't question every play you make and try to improve you will not make it. So do you really want it?

Instead of borrowing from friends borrow from loanshark.

i 'made' it taking shots, at a different time tho..

the guarantees used to be 5-10x what they are now if not 15-20x for some MTTs.
the hope of sinking big and saving this train wreck of a poker career is slim....

thank you for your kind words and constructive criticism,

and pileupthecoins loan sharks idk, im trying to not go that far xD
will ask father for 15 bucks soon when i muster up the spirits....
lets see what happens guys, as long as there is life there is hope.

Last thing I'll write about this, a definition of 'making' it that I found useful is you'll 100% never go broke from poker and you are able to make money from it, doesn't mather the stackes you play or how much money you have. You could win 1.5million tommorow, I still think you'd go broke with how you handle things. In some aspects you need to become the opposite of who you are right now, that's why 1000 buy ins+ is the solution for you. GL bud

Got $15 from father, deposited insta. All we got to show up with is the $11 fenomeno.
Just busted the few last dollars in PLO Turning a flush but villain rivers boat which we block. Kappa

im punting my final and only run off playing bad

lol that was all we needed in this threadd, baduigi for ****ing life

And now he speaks my journal?

Got a hold of $20 bucks in the most degenerate way. Busted it all within an hour.

Waiting for a $30 loan right now.
Man I am so ****ing miserable.
I am the poster boy of degeneracy....

How much is a beer in your country?

I dont really drink beer but at the store its like $1-3 I think??? And in bars/clubs its 2-3x that much.

You suggest me to maybe drink a couple of beers??

In the most degenerate way...

Bro wtf. U sucked a dick in an alley?

No man I dont do gay ****.
It was degenerate like, real degenerate.
Wont go into details right now.

When I bink I will probably tell what I did, but for now even I am too ashamed to write it out.

Atm waiting for my best friend R for a $15 loan.

Man I feel like such a ****ing degenerate, I am feeling like utter and complete **** when I am either at the work, gym or playing pokers

Why not work more? More time working means less time playing poker, which would lose you less money, and would reduce the amount of times you'd have to debase yourself for small amounts of money to reload your accounts. Win-win

I work as a substitute teacher and I am not needed every day.
Like for instance today, and tomorrow seems to be no show as well.

I’d look for a cash job that’s really flexible

Food delivery?

like for instance what?

man I don't got the energy to do much.
right now on very strong meds that **** me up good.
like I just woke up and I am not refreshed at all.

I am really ****ing tired, fatigued and exhausted - has been so for over a year....

the Degenerate behaviour consists, got $20 bucks to play for.
2/15 in a €55 sat with 4 places getting seats.