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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
10yr ago

Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very w

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ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago
by amatola

Lfgo.

Honestly, wishing you the best, keep a cool head.

god damn it thank you, i always get moved when anonymous online strangers wish me wel.
and i get infinitely pissed when i get scolded but you know what?
i scold myself too, and i do it hardcore.

16 minutes left, lfg lfg lfg lfg. going to keep a cool head because i want to and i will not let my friend amatola down.

376 posts · member since May 2016
1yr ago

I give you my sword. GL

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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago
by ejames209

I give you my sword. GL

sword taken.

with the support of the (basicly) entire 2+2 i CAN NOT ****ING LOSE.
THE TOURNAMENT STARTS IN 1 MINUTE.
FIRST PRIZE SEEMS TO BE AROUND $40K INCLUDING BOUNTIES, LETS ****ING GOOOOOO!!!

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

already on half stack, LOL.
ben opens defend 97o flop comes T94ss, villain bets 1/4th i call. turn is 3d - he basicly pots it - i call. river is 2h. I say ffs a5s after he pots it and call, he has exactly - a5s.. FML.
DOWN TO THE NEXT HAND LETS NOT GIVE UPP SHALL WE...
edit: won 2 pots, i know i am updating a lot lol but at 36k now starting stack 50k. i am only single tabling and got a big screen so i am losing any ev in these micro updates xD will continue updating you guys xDd

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago

bro u could seriously pileupsomecoins from this MTT. get at it. u got ability probably from the abilify to pileupcoins in satties. abilify makes you wanna gamble like a madman. I'm going to download stars and watch u play.

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

Busto.
Utg opens 3 flat flat sb 97dd.
BB 3! utg calls, i call.
Flop 763, bb check utg bets 50% pot.
I call, BB Folds.
Turn is 10d, i have a fd gutshot and a pair.
I check he JAMS ****ING 88 LIKE A FUXKING DONKEY AND HOLDS F M L.
SMASHED MY FIST FULL FORCE INTO THE DESK ****ING HELLLLLLLLLLLLL.FUXKING DONKEYS

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago
by ChanY

Busto.
Utg opens 3 flat flat sb 97dd.
BB 3! utg calls, i call.
Flop 763, bb check utg bets 50% pot.
I call, BB Folds.
Turn is 10d, i have a fd gutshot and a pair.
I check he JAMS ****ING 88 LIKE A FUXKING DONKEY AND HOLDS F M L.
SMASHED MY FIST FULL FORCE INTO THE DESK ****ING HELLLLLLLLLLLLL.FUXKING DONKEYS

eyes on the next loan bro. deposit and play satty and get a seat again.

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

got a mini loan.
registered a sat to the $109 fenomeneo $150k gtd, and guess what.
1/8 JUST DOUBLEEEED J9O BVB AQO SNAPCALLS AND I TURN A STRAIGHT 😃
OTHERWISE I WOULD BE OUUUUUT LMAOOO

I WILL LOOK BACK AT THIS MOMENT IN GLORY WHEN I SHIP THE FENOMENO TONIGHT!!!

edit: we in the $109 fenomeno xD wish me the best of gls.

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago
by ChanY

got a mini loan.
registered a sat to the $109 fenomeneo $150k gtd, and guess what.
1/8 JUST DOUBLEEEED J9O BVB AQO SNAPCALLS AND I TURN A STRAIGHT 😃
OTHERWISE I WOULD BE OUUUUUT LMAOOO

I WILL LOOK BACK AT THIS MOMENT IN GLORY WHEN I SHIP THE FENOMENO TONIGHT!!!

edit: we in the $109 fenomeno xD wish me the best of gls.

bro u can do it bro. u proven u can win in satties. now just the big bink in a big MTT.
Once u bink a big MTT bink 50 more and go down as the greatest online MTT player of all time.

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago
by Pileupthecoins

bro u can do it bro. u proven u can win in satties. now just the big bink in a big MTT.
Once u bink a big MTT bink 50 more and go down as the greatest online MTT player of all time.

YES pileupthecoins YES.
was momentarily #1 in the tournament xD doubled up j9hh hit two pair on turn vs a guy with kk.
had a read on him he bet small with trash and big with value so check raised turn allin and HELD.

one hand later i pick up AKcc, co opens 2bb i make it 6.5bb he makes it 15bb -- scheissssseeee this is so value.
i jam anyway and he has KK, ****ing ACE ON FLOOP AND IM #1 BOOOM.

ATM 7/723 XD

I WILL WIN THIS TOURNAMENT AND I WILL TRAVEL TO WHEREVER YOU GUYS LIVE AND PARTY WITH YOU!!!!!

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago

bink it!

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1008 posts · member since Jul 2023
1yr ago

glgl

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

we cooking guys !
122,3 BB 10/821 RN.
got kK and REEEECKT ak suited, he didn't bad beat me xd
before that pulled a bluff for a small pot that didn't go trough xD

WE ABSOLUTELY COOKING I CAN ALREADY VISUALISE TELLING M I WON $20K AND PARTY ALL NIGHT WITH HEEEER!!!"

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago
by ChanY

we cooking guys !
122,3 BB 10/821 RN.
got kK and REEEECKT ak suited, he didn't bad beat me xd
before that pulled a bluff for a small pot that didn't go trough xD

WE ABSOLUTELY COOKING I CAN ALREADY VISUALISE TELLING M I WON $20K AND PARTY ALL NIGHT WITH HEEEER!!!"

M respect you all night. party all night long. u da man. be da man.

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

Down to fumes.
Lost two hands back to back and now I am on life support.
This is tournament poker for you guys.

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ChanY avatar
OP
1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

I swear to god I need to violently smash the **** out or something or my soul will explode

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago

If i lived alone I swear to the only god exists that I would demolish my room to ashes and dust.
Just ****ing busted


Gonna OD on sleeping meds

Kthxbai

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago

your funny bro.
get another loan and run it up to a bink again.
get money from job preferably rather than loan.
u got ur chips in when u were in front.

356 posts · member since May 2024
1yr ago
by ChanY

I swear to god I need to violently smash the **** out or something or my soul will explode

by ChanY

If i lived alone I swear to the only god exists that I would demolish my room to ashes and dust.
Just ****ing busted

If you took your buddy up on his offer, and didn't live with mommy and daddy, you could let that primal aggression out. Maybe that's what's keeping you from glory?

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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago
by Rolled High, Bro

If you took your buddy up on his offer, and didn't live with mommy and daddy, you could let that primal aggression out. Maybe that's what's keeping you from glory?

Go **** yourself in the ass with a bayonett

629 posts · member since Dec 2016
1yr ago

Are you actually trying to make money or just fulfill a gambling itch? Why wouldn't you unreg and use 109 tourney dollars to build a roll?

I want to see you in action, not busto

ChanY avatar
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1194 posts · member since Aug 2014
1yr ago
by WPNdonk

Are you actually trying to make money or just fulfill a gambling itch Why wouldn't you unreg and use 109 tourney dollars to build a roll

I want to see you in action, not busto

Go big or go home is my forever motto.

356 posts · member since May 2024
1yr ago
by ChanY

Go **** yourself in the ass with a bayonett

How would I even procure something like that? A knife store? Does that exist? Ebay? Does THAT still exist?

by WPNdonk

Are you actually trying to make money or just fulfill a gambling itch Why wouldn't you unreg and use 109 tourney dollars to build a roll

I want to see you in action, not busto

Have you not been reading the thread? He says he's a mentally ill gambling addict, he doesn't study, he's losing at every level including <$5 games. He's never going to build a roll, be in action for longer than a day, or not be busto. Any earnest advice is wasted because he doesn't care, just like pastings, or 6betme, or Rayz, or any of the other PB&G lolcows.

998 posts · member since Mar 2022
1yr ago
by Rolled High, Bro

How would I even procure something like that? A knife store? Does that exist? Ebay? Does THAT still exist?Have you not been reading the thread? He says he's a mentally ill gambling addict, he doesn't study, he's losing at every level including <$5 games. He's never going to build a roll, be in action for longer than a day, or not be busto. Any earnest advice is wasted be

he doesn't buy crabmeat...

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1yr ago

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10yr ago

Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very well either, I was buried deep in ''debts'' as a 8 year old when I ran incredibly bad playing rock paper scissors against a friend for Runescape in-game currency (had to grind for two weeks straight killing monsters and collecting loot ffs). This passed on and every game I played had the touch of gambling. I played Habbohotel (a online-community where you could interact and have rooms which you could decorate with furniture) where you could actually have your own casino, lol. You basicly had in-game dices that you rolled and the closest one to 21 won double theyr wager. At the age of ten I was playing blackjack basicly for real money since the in-game furniture actually costed and I was playing pretty high stakes. It doesn't strike me until now how sick that actually is and that it was not targeted in any way.

Fastforward until I'm 18 where I started actually gambling a tad, the occasional slot or some blackjack. I really loved it, a bit too much. However that was short lived, I still remember my first experience on Pokerstars. I deposited 20 bucks and played 25NL, doubling it up quickly and as quickly dumping it. I deposited again and started playing some 6 max hypers and I was hooked. This was the ****, and I was actually good at it! (roflmao I sucked and ran like Hermes). I made like 300 bucks in two days and thought I had found out a way to print money. Cashed out, and was incredibly pleased with myself. Well spoiler alert, this was not a way of printing money. I kept playing and I sucked so bad that I just kept losing for months, the fact that I was playing $15s. I gambled away every single penny I earned through my job as a; wait for it..: croupier (lol how unexpected). It sucked, I was such a degen and I hated myself for it. I was counting down every single day until my next salary which is the 25th here in Sweden, and then procceeded to go broke within days. Rinse and repeat. Relatively it was not very big sums at all, but it was what I had and it started to escalate.

I had tried to play tournaments at times, but I just did not have the patience. Patience has never been my thing, and patience is key in MTT poker. 6 max hypers were perfect, fast paced and mass variance. My cup of tea. I would try the occasional turbo but even that was too slow for me. I gave the Hotter 16.5 a shot one sunday and I managed to go deep. I played like utter bull****, but with 30 left I was 2nd in chips. I was about to burst in pure excitement, this was my DREAM. To break even and even be in big profit. Every degen knows that they only have one goal on theyr mind, to break even. You look forward to that ****ing day when all your losses are buried by the big score. For months this was on my mind, I had to make back what I lost. But I was quickly pulled out of my dream. I busted in 16th when my A9s could not hold up against KQ. The queen on the floop was like a sledgehammer to my nuts. I could not sleep that night, I felt so incredibly bad that I did not know what to do with myself. I was so close, but I was screwed. ****ing ****.

Somehow the next Sunday I manage to run deep in the Hotter 75. I remember the prize being 20k+ and I felt that this was my ****ing chance, I was given a second ****ing chance. This time was my ****ing time, and when I see a shove and reshove and wait impatiently to click call with my KK the excitement was beyond the roof. I even flopped a set, but I got backdoored by A7o which rivered a straight. I proceeded to bust in 50th place and once again I was a wreck. ****ing hell, fml. So ****ing close again why was I so unlucky? Little did I know that worse was to come.
I decided to solely grind turbo MTTs, I had been so close to my goal and felt that I kept grinding that I could do it. Over the coming 6 months I ran so ****ing bad that it was not sane. Admittedly I was not very good at playing, but I just took some insane and outrageous beats where I should have just held. It never stopped and I kept being manhandled deep in tournaments over and over again. Obviously this is not good for your economical status and I was torching money at a very fast rate. As the months kept passing I had an occasional small 1-2k score which I lost back within weeks, enough to keep the small fire within myself burning.

My first real big score was the Hot 27, I won $4k. This was in december just a couple of months ago. And somehow I was not satisfied at all, this was rougly more than 1/3 of what I had managed to lost in the previous year. I had to keep grinding, and grinding I did almost managing to bust my roll again. For a couple of weeks I was swinging like a ****ing yo-yo. Losing 2-3k, binking a mtt, losing 2-3k and then binking again. At this time I decided to invest in a coach, I GRIND THIS (best coach NA) which pointed out my obvious leaks (punting and random spazzes lol) but also overall helped me play a much more solid game. Well, shortly after I procceeded to have the sickest sunday ever where I chopped the Hotter $33 for $10.5k, won a $109 turbo for $5.8k and chopped the Hotter 8.8 for $2k.

Finally I had managed to break even, and was well in the profits region. But it was not as I had imagined to all. All I felt was apathy, it really was not as big of a deal as I had thought. The coming days I barely played at all, and when I did i played sloppy since I had no motivation at all. I had gone from zero to actually having much money (by my own standards) and I really could not give less of a ****.

This was just a month ago, I actually was about to start a journal here before that but I just could not be arsed at that time.

With all my rabblings put away this will be my log where I log everything. All the MTTs I play, all my feelings and what not. I will try to take a much more serious and stricter approach towards poker where every single hand and BI matters, as of right now I'm not always playing my A-game and sometimes I basicly punt away stacks especially early on in tournaments. This journal will be a way to enforce myself of playing a solid game since I will log every single tournament played with any occuring spot or if I do something plain stupid.

As of now I only have one goal and that is to make $25k until the end of the year, not including earlier cashes so I'm counting from journal start.

So sit back, fasten your seat belts and enjoy the ride!

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My graph, lol. Outdated one tho, I might be a tad + since then.

A newly taken picture of me....