1/3 Grinding and Bankroll

Had a fun moment at a lively plo table the other night with an action player - he pokes fun about my lawyering skills. I reply, “at your sentencing I’d tell the judge, ‘your honor …I have nothing to say, he did it, lock him up, he deserves it!!!.’” That got a guffaw out of him. Good times.

Slow session, dsAA lost three ways, wrap lost to open ender, 76544ds got in five ways figuring they were blocking each other and lost, AKJT7 lost with top two ott to bottom two and a flush draw. Won at 5/10 at least. Market is continuing to make all time highs, I’m starting to when the correction will be. Seems overvalued.

Covering over the weekend again for Monday hearings. Not a heavy docket at least.

Turns out my colleague was smart for giving me this weekend and taking the holiday weekend because it’s a busy docket with potentially three hearings on Monday. Interviews were interesting with one symptomatic client falsely accusing me of calling her the n word and another saying I was very handsome. Never a dull moment…!

Rough session, ran well at 1/2 plo scooping KQT98ds three ways and semi bluff getting there turn to river wrap and fd, but losing at 10/10/50/100 again, dsAA held but a bluff didn’t get through and I lost a lot of flips. Also lost pair fd gs to top pair and top two to a bad draw all in ott, we ran it twice and dealer chopped the pot and then someone not in hand said the other guy scooped because no one else noticed his straight. Womp womp. Lost a bad dsAA towards the end too. And AK765ds got it in against the action player and second action player’s KJT83 and lost. Also post with top set to a bad draw for good measure. Thankfully didn’t lose nearly as much as I did last time.

I’m Having second thoughts about the job again, it was fun for a while but now I’m tempted to go back to full time poker. They have me doing stuff I’m not interested in and I’m tired of some of these pseudo judges who just provide a facade of Justice much of the time. The commute is terrible. The pay is awful. Most of the clients are cool but the bad apples really stress me out. I feel disrespect from the hospitals and even judges. It’s hard to win especially with the wrong judge in which case your chances are basically zero. The work is unpredictable.

I would be making a lot more money just playing poker too.

Maybe I can go to my boss and ask to work remotely and not do state hospital work. See what they say. Then decide what I want to do.

I think I just need a vacation.

What a bummer, sorry to hear you’re having second thoughts about what seemed to be a fulfilling job. How much are they paying you? Perhaps you can be doing more good by donating some of the money you make from poker full time if poker pays much better and you don’t have to deal with the disrespect and being accused of calling someone the N word

They don’t pay that much, around 100k, and I take home a fraction of that. I didn’t do it for the money of course and I knew that going in I would be taking a pay cut. It was moreso for quality of life, as I was getting pretty miserable just playing poker, but now that benefit is no longer there. I was actually surprised how much they offered to pay me when I got the job. I asked for more back then, citing my years of experience, but they declined. Another drawback of the job I didn’t mention is I do a lot of work that I don’t use, I prep a lot of hearings that don’t end up happening because we don’t know for sure whether a case will go forward until the day of.

I just wonder if going back to poker will make be happy or if I will end up miserable again like last time. Seems no matter what I do I become unhappy!

I did see my “situationship” yesterday which was nice. He said he wouldn’t think less of me if I went back to poker. My parents meanwhile are emphasizing the health care benefits and stability in uncertain times. They are so economically conservative. Very typical children of people experienced the great depression.

I played for an hour lost every hand at every game and left today, I was extremely grumpy. Pretty sure a combination of recent runbad and work stress is overwhelming me right now.

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I played a super late session in a very juicy game last night for old time’s sake, unfortunately my timing was off and I didn’t capitalize as much as I would have liked before I finally threw in the towel pretty exhausted. I don’t miss grinding graveyard shifts. I am going to reset my schedule asap to be up earlier. Ran atrociously at 20/40 mix and hardly win a pot, granted I played one or two hands I didn’t have to but otherwise nothing got there or held. My best hand 2345 in badeucy got outdrawn by two players drawing 3. :/ Folded second nut flush in 2-7 drama incorrectly also. Played a lot of tris that went nowhere.

Plan for the week off is to self care and study poker and exercise.

Studied some gto wizard sims on YouTube and exercised, running well at 2/5 so far after a rough start losing AJ to T6 all in pre and AA to A3s in 3! Pot.

Ran fine, got 55 in against the same guy who jammed T6o earlier and made a set and tripled with a third player in there. 5/10 was all 3! and 4! and 5! pre with argentinians so I left for plo where I won AKQ96ds to mediocre AA all in pre and 99865ds 4! over high interfering ranges and scooped.

Woke up at a reasonable time, took a nap, I enjoy this routine. Taking time off work made me appreciate a life of poker.

Played late, slept in, have a headache now, reminds me of what I didn't like about the shifting sleep schedule of poker. Flush over flushed someone at hold em and won there, AAheld in 3! pot at plo, AAKQTds hh lost to shtty 77 on K75hhJ turn gave me wrap and nfd and I didn't get there after crai as a semibluff on the turn. Got AQ976ds in versus a maniac and he actully had a decent hand this time, AKT87, then started playing really poorly calling nonnut draws but made a comeback at the end and ended down only a few hundo after starting up a couple grand.

So far running not great A8s lost to 76o all in pre against maniac and AQo ran into AKo co v bb and my made hands are getting outdrawn. At least I won at 20/40 limit hold em.

Trying to remain patient even though nothing is going my way lately.

So far running not great A8s lost to 76o all in pre against maniac and AQo ran into AKo co v bb and my made hands are getting outdrawn. At least I won at 20/40 limit hold em.

Trying to remain patient even though nothing is going my way lately.

Nothing seems to be going my way lately. My week off has been dampened by runbad. Market is starting to correct, can't make a hand or be dealt one, sleep is off. My rungood abruptly ended and is heading in the opposite direction very quickly and I am stuck more than I ever have been in a month. At least I was in a good 2/5/10 game with a lady 3! all her suited connectors allowing me 4! Q3s and A3s at 100% frequency. She was jamming second pair for 7x pot on the turn, stuff like that, it was a fun table with talk of zodiac signs (apparently mine, libra, is the coolest sign) and beers and talk with the visiting Spaniards of traveling to Ibiza. She kept stacking the euro pros which was the best part. I was pretty card dead, a pattern lately. Been getting in reps of jumping jacks and steps in between hands to get some cardio in.

Not much beats sipping lattes on the couch by a sunny window though. Except perhaps sipping lattes with almond milk. (I ran out.) I cannot control negative variance but at least I can choose the font color.

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Math is gonna math. Trust the process. Don’t even blink twice. You crush. Grab the bull by the horns and make it your bitch. The only thing we can control is our attitude and how we respond, it’s what separate the winners and losers

This gave me such a boost in session, thanks a lot!!! Winning today pretty good all things considered. 😀 People at 10/10 kept saying I was the best player and someone commented how out of towners always beat us and I said it’s because “we all suck if the best player in the game is a dumb lawyer. “

Anyone else who ever wants to give me positive vibes here feel free. I need more of that to keep my spirits up.

Played 1/2 pot limit big o which is running and did well, will keep playing as long as it runs. At 10/25 won AKo all in pre versus ?? and a bunch of smaller pots. Got into 10/10 again, good sign I am being invited more often now. I think I a growing on them. I agreed to royalties for the first time (anyone dealt a straight in their hand or better gets paid by everyone else $200-$2,000 depending on the hand), and tonight there were a lot of full houses meaning I paid $600 out several times in addition to the $300 waterfall every dealer change. That added up very quickly so I was stuck a lot. Got AJ986ds all in pre three ways and lost to KQQJT, a small mistake but good for my table image, Thankfully I turned it around at the end of the session to only be stuck $1,000. If it wasn't for all the royalty payouts I would be up. I did make a straight and a boat of my own at least but the boat was when we were short-handed so the payout was smaller. My dsAAK72 held three ways all in pre towards the end. Someone asked if I scooped and I said "no, I only won the main pot." That got a laugh. I did put in a good check with AJ on AJT9A and got a crai in against allegedly AT who folded after betting large IP.

The game broke and I played 5/T where I lost a bluff and called a euro 4! with A6s and flopped top two and he folded to a min-raise otf after betting 1/10 pot. Must have had air. At 1/2 plo I did ok until the end when with 5/10/20 on there were two limps and I raised dsKK875 and a short stack limp jammed for 15bb and the second limper flatted, I iso'd and unfrortunately the second limper was trapping with decent AA and I lost and now the tight players had all the money and it was time to leave. At least I won $1,000 on the day.

Still grappling with whether to keep the job or go back to full time poker, leaning towards bowing out.

Pros of job: contributing to society, using legal talents and education, time with clients, health insurance and retirement plan, modest extra income;

cons: less income from poker, anxiety, variable sleep schedule, stress, lack of respect from certain judges and clients.

One more pro is balance in life.