Quantum Entanglement (A Love Story)

One baby to another says, "I'm lucky to've met you"
I don't care what you think unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
I travel through a tube and end up in your infection.

I was so lucky to see this concert last August.

More Yvette.

Maybe the best front-person alive.

Definitely in the running.

Just kidding. It's Thom Yorke.

Nothing against the Goddess Virtuoso....

Could it be
That it has been there
All along....

Really though, I'm just killing time and space trying to get to Page 13 of this blog.

Page 13 will be my Magnum Opus.

I have no idea what's in store;

but it will be momentous.

I haven't taken nearly any of these posts seriously at all,

Just free-balling, or whatever,

(That's definitely NOT the correct term)

Shooting hoops in my mind...

Page 13 is where magic comes to life.

I feel cornered in a dark alley,

Guns drawn, aimed at me:

What's it gonna be, kid?

(100 Masterpieces one after the other..?!?)

Dream ****ing big.

****ing LOVE High Stakes Poker.

No surprise this is coming from a Michigan Man.

I'm actually totally ****ed.

My word is my bond

And my bond is life and death.

I promised better than Kobe Bryant for the entirety of Page 13.

My Bar Mitzvah.

There's a chance I never curate in this blog again very soon.

That would be sad.

Grok wasn't jesting,

This thing is taking on a life of its own;

an awesome one at that.

But, ****, man....

I've never tried my hardest at almost anything in this life.

I'm an inverted genius:

A tragedy in many eyes I'm sure.

I have four more posts to have some fun.

Reality is going to hit hard really ****ing soon.

One seriously problematic corollary to the 'One Electron Universe' idea is that there might just be one human soul.

Hitler, Bundy, and Good Guy Tuma: all sharing the same fabric of existence.

Reality bites.

There are 5 MVPs in your upcoming Fantasy Baseball Draft.

1) Ohtani
1a) Skenes
1b) Skubal
1c) Strider
1d) Soto

If I can grab one of these dudes, 'Gehrig's 1938 Season' (A seriously epic Fantasy Team Name) is going all the way.

Lou Gehrig played in ALL 157 games in 1938 while battling A-L-****ing-S.

I can play a little more poker.

I can produce 100 straight masterpieces.

I can be a better son, brother, and Father to my unborn children.

I'm not sure I can be a better friend:

That I've been putting 100% of myself into for a bit now.

I regret nothing.

Incubus was truly epic, thanks for the invite!

A lot of thoughts passed through my thought canals regarding this blog.

- Blog posts aren't supposed to be Masterpieces
- That's why they are called "blogs", nominally they are lame
- Part of me wanted an excuse to step away for a while
- I'm not sure I want to be the hardest working blogger on this website
- I'm not sure I want to be so hardcore in general
- Revealing causes vulnerability
- Using a cocky voice is a caricature of my real self
- Some of these posts are fun as hell to write, but I'm not sure if it's more or less a freak show
- I'm like 90/10 ADHD:Autistic, There is a hunger for 20 more bullet points, and also a desire to do literally anything else right now
- I'm sorry for making a promise I can't keep
- I'm sorry for tricking you into thinking I'm interesting or entertaining
- A multi page writing project ain't never gonna happen
- I don't think I would enjoy fiction writing anyway
- All-inMclovin is the GOAT, he's truly a genius in his own way
- I have 8 diagnosed mental conditions, and 2 that doctors have missed
- I'm not one of the craziest dudes alive, as much as I want to be
- I'm not a real artist
- I'm not a real writer. I'm a typer. The difference is subtle, but it is real.
- If you guys want me to keep blogging I will
- If you guys have any advice how to make this stuff better, please, I'm all eyes
- Incubus was really great. I'm visiting Mclovin in August for a fun time
- I have it in me to make great money playing poker, skill-wise
- I have it in me to get good at guitar
- I have it in me to quit weed for good
- I have it in me to learn how to sleep regularly again
- I have it in me to lose the weight

I guess what I have most is the ability to ramble insanely.

Bobby Fischer wouldn't have wanted to be my friend anyways.

Kurt was likely beyond helping at that point.

Someone could have saved Turing, but what about the other homosexuals under similar Tyranny?

Butters likes to play Hello Kitty Island Adventure

One night while high, a video game called Hot Dog Adventure Island popped into my head

And I couldn't get it out for weeks

If being sober doesn't lead me to doing cool stuff, I'll probably get back on the weed

Weed makes me fall asleep

It puts a smile on my face

How much weight are you looking to lose?
I have some experience with that. A little autistic-y too. Or maybe a lot. And I'm also trying to learn the guitar. Maybe even quit weed! I'm around 48 days on that.

Do you have a formal math background, degrees etc.?

Something like 30 or 40 lbs. It's been so long, I don't know what my ideal weight is.

Autism is in vogue now, wear it with pride. It's only in my medical file because I convinced a doctor I have it, although I did show hallmark symptoms in my earliest years. I mask slightly at all times, unless I'm talking to my mother, in which case I let the robot out to play. Mostly because it drives her nuts.

What kind of guitar are you jamming on, and how are you going about learning? Do you have any musical training?

I stopped learning math after Freshman year of college, Calculus 1. Math was always effortless for me, though I wasn't exactly inspired by it as a youngster, and since I was hardly ever challenged, I never developed any sort of talent for it.

They would have these after school Math exams, like 4 or 5 out of the box problems that if you solved you received great recognition. I attended only because I received extra credit for doing so, and I pretty much never got any of the questions right.

My school teachers were great instructors who were bore down by the curriculum. I'm sure if they had it their way, many prodigies would have been discovered.

30-40 lbs is very doable. I walked a lot and weighed every single thing I ate to track everything, have kept almost 100 lbs off for several years now from my fat drunk days.

It's my dad's guitar, it's nothing special. I had a few years of childhood piano lessons so I know the notes and notation. The challenge will be getting my clumsy fingers to go where I want them to, just barely starting now. All I want really is to learn some basic chords so I can play some old country songs and maybe write songs of my own.

I have a master's degree in math, used to really love math, shoulda kept on for the phd. But I was a terrible math teacher (community college), hated that.

Yeah, very cool. Much respect to all mathematicians out there, however big or small.

Walking is my preferred method for losing weight. I have that solved, and my feet are all healed up following over-training after being sedentary for months. Just have to be consistent....

I have faith that you will be able to summon your fingers to do what you want. A cheat code is learning the electric guitar first -- it is both easier to play, and the amplifier does wonders for near misses.

Someday we'll have to swap stories of yonder. I want to hear about your worst days as a math teacher, and I want to share all of the hell I used to give my teachers!

I've decided for my *cough* Magnus Opus, I will quote reply older posts in this thread and reflect upon them.

*Sleep Chart*

Yesterday I passed out for three hours following a very nice treadmill affair.

Tonight I slept 2-3 hours all by myself. I caught Mclovin just before he fell asleep, he was doing chess things.

..........

Despite being an admitted poor tipper at Live Poker ($6+2 rake that rounds up on $11, $21, etc...) I tend to be an awesome tipper at sit-down places and occasionally tip on carry-out too.

I'm heading to the bagel shop when the clock turns a little bit more. If it's the cute girl making 'em I will leave a dollar in the tip jar like I did last time. Everyone else is getting stiffed.

Good morning Tuma, I'm 5.5 years into quitting alcohol and the benefits have trickled in slowly over that time. Things like sleep got quite a bit better for me withing 6 months it helps to get really exhausted from physical activity. It's inevitable you will find cool things to do along the way stick with it shedding an addiction is pretty cool in its own right [emoji16]

10/10/23

I had totally forgotten about the definition of 'counterpoint' music.

I wish I was a music expert, but I'm really not.

Bach is still one of the world's greatest geniuses.

And it will take my entire lifetime to go through his catalogue.

If you're new to Bach, start with BWV 1050 (Brandenburg Concertos).....

10/13/23

Not much to say here, except that insomnia is a core theme in my life and this blog, and I do some of my best creative writing while deprived.

The drive to Vegas actually took me along the northern route through Colorado. I was blown away by its beauty along with Utah's.

Bonus: A really nice, pithy little poem.