A raging fish on a heater
Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very w
Just lost a pot AA vs AKo bvb. He flopped two kings.
In a satty to the 75 or 82 mystery bounty cant remember how much but in is.
Im boiling.
Chiplead pot
Sometimes I am incredibly sharp and sometimes I am so atrocious that its not even funny.
The best players have in common that they are on they A or atleast B game for the longest periods of time.
Meanwhile I swing from A to Z in 15 minutes because something tilts me.
How do you know what an "A" "B" or "Z" game is?
Sometimes I am incredibly sharp and sometimes I am so atrocious that its not even funny.
The best players have in common that they are on they A or atleast B game for the longest periods of time.
Meanwhile I swing from A to Z in 15 minutes because something tilts me.
How do you know what an "A" "B" or "Z" game is?
A= making the plays he at least thinks are correct.
Z= after losing in a $55-$109 buyin punting off ever remaining tourney in a fit of batshit crazy monkey tilt
I SHOULD HAVE JUST ****ING SLEPT NOT GO ON TO BURN $200 ON 15 PILLS OF SLEEPING MEDS
FML WHY AM I SO ****ING DUMB
donked off every single penny but $35 man guys i love too much otherwise i would just unlike myself rn
Call a therapist tomorrow you need help leveling out bro. Seriously!
i know.
made the satty now going for the win
like read my journal its 29 pages now.
i have NOT tilted this way EVER.
Like its ****ing so frustrating that i want punch everything around me to dust and ashes I am ****ING PISSED OFF
ok so sattied into the $162 bounty builder.
if i mess up a single hand here i will quit poker forever.
kthxbai
okay calm down calm down
i misscliekd with JJ mineralised instead of raising 8x and two people called my minreraise from 2bb to 3bb.
i will be calm, i will be cool and collected i won't tilt.
god please save me.
u losing is standard.
don't play satties but ur trying to build a roll.
i thought about quittting but im going to fly like a crow and fly up to the tallest building a make a ****ing racket.
u should join me up at the top playing high stakes MTTs making a big noise crowing.
don't waste ya money with those idiots. if its free in Sweden a couple of Psychologist sessions might teach ya about mindfulness etc. pray to a God instead than poor man Buddhism.
get ya sleep right, keep doing Gym, make ya bed, bang ya misses, have a money budget, and start winning at poker.
You will need to see a psychiatrist about ya medications. Abilify caused me to only sleep 4-5 hours a night a whole lot of other problems. made me horny like a alligator though. You will want to explain that the crow in you wants to be on the less amount of medications as possible. Some psychs will try and put u on a ton of meds which ain't even needed.
Don't talk about anxiety issues just focus on ya sleep issues with psych for now. they just put ya on Benz for anxiety.
Also look into doing more manual labour throughout the day. Go volunteer doing something where ya use ya muscles and or go to martial arts boxing etc.
Busted the $162, played pocket 55 atrociously vs a ****** and then I called k4o for a bountty for half my stack. Flopped an open ender but no dice. Then i busted with T9hh on TxxxJ board villain goes for thin value with ATo 😀
I was so pissed that I was about to smash in my screen but I didnt because then I cant play poker anymore.
Got $20 to my name, thats it.
I have not a penny to pay debts with, not a single penny.
Self-ban yourself from gambling and call a therapist or the gambling addiction support line.
Self-ban yourself from gambling and call a therapist or the gambling addiction support line.
Nah gtfo
I will become rich, ASAP.
Never playing a hand of casino again.
Only poker, long live the sattelites.
Going Raving tonight.
Played some PLO zoom Meanwhilst waiting for my friend.
Built a $50 imperium but I lost it all except $6.
Was three way allin with the nuts straight vs some random crap and a nfd, spade on the river. Goodbye $36.
Got a bit tilted and donked most of it away.
Now ready to go raving.
My dad sent me $50.
Promised him to not play any more live and he was very happy.
Will try to get $100-$150 on Sunday pitching in the idea that I can easily make $10k.
