A raging fish on a heater

Not sure if this helps but was once told that before a sessions it can end five ways.

With regards to your current bankroll.
1) it can be huge win
2) it can be a small win
3) you can end even
4) you can have a small loss
5) you can have a huge loss

Now the first 4, you don't have much say about, poker is poker. But you never, ever, need book a 5.

But rooting for you, you sound like a decent bloke. You know what you doing wrong, at what point do you address it?

Hey dude or dudette eternal respect for being kind. Appreciate it.

I lost my cool over the course of several days and tilted away a big portion of my roll.
Got it in super bad in PLO for like $450 and then I proceeded to lose a couple more BIs which tilted me a lot.

I will try to never tilt that hard again.

Today I bought a new gym card for $100 which I got from my father. This means I will have basicly no more funds for gambling.

I will have to survive without gambling for a couple of days, thats ok.

In other good news I get to keep my drivers license, which is good news.

Kthxbai

Got a stake for $1 $1, busted within five minutes. Lmao.
Opened 33 utg to $6, we go three ways.
flop comes 653hh, i bet $11 call and call.
Turn is off suit ten, we bet $30 utg +1 jams for his last $22 and big blind jams for my effective stack which was $200.
He shows 66 lol, I am REKT Tyrannosaurus SHREKT. I show my backer the hand and he chuckles.

The good news is that a dude in the club wanted to stake me, he has seen me play live and I am actually pretty solid live I have never ever tilted a single second live and I play very solid so he wanted to stake me.
Lets see where that leads.

man we lowkey cooking 2/3 in a $11 satty to the $162 monday 6max PSKO.
we had some real luck wrecks j6o vs a8 and wrecks a8 again with k7hh xD
LETS ****ING GOOO VAMOOOS 20 SECONDS LEFT BEFORE WE START AGAIN PLZ BABY JESUS KNOCK THE LAST GUY OUT !

we ABSOLUTELY COOKING WE ARE IN T8DD RECKT AKO BVB LMAOOO AND WE IN!!!!!

This hand just proves that you have done zero offtable work for your game.

ME GETTING IT sorry caps me getting it in set over set proves exactly what?
are you sarcastic or are you severely mentally challenged?

IM COOKING GUYS I GOT IT IN SET OVER SET NOW 77 V 44 ON 764 FLOP LMAO XD

I don't think i'm the mentally challenged here. Im not asking $50 loans and living with my parents as a grown man. Flexin with a few K's and "giving" some money for his father and then asking them back.
33 utg open, cbetting that flop, turn calling jam. Not sure could you play that any worse.
Just a degen gambler.

Awesome blog though and good to see what gamblingaddiction could cost.

i flopped a set, 200bb deep 33 is an open utg. it was only ul xD

27/43 in the $162 monday 6 max.... wel lowkey cooking 48.2bb and a dream.
got in my aqo vs ajo for 15bb and got rekt KQT board :(

i am glad to entertain someone, or yeah you are making fun of me you piece of **** but IDGAF

REMEMBER I CHOOSE TO BE HONEST AND TRANSPARENT I COULD HAVE LIED MY ASS OFF BUT I AM OPEN AND TRANSPARENT AND IDGAF WHAT SOME RANDOM LOSER ONLINE THINKS ABOUT ME

KTHXBAI

gl in 162$

just busted ****ing SHITTTTTTTT
****ING HELL
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FUCJK ****
JAMMED A5O BVB SNAPCALLED BY K7O HE RIVERS A STRAIGHT FML LIKE WHAT THE **** DO I DO NOW I AM ****ED
FML FML FML FML
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KTHXBAI

https://www.pokerstarsreplayer.com/hands...
I ****ING BLOCK THE 5 AS WELL **** MY ****IGN PIECE OF **** LIFE

All is ok, guys I am calm and collected now.
**** happens, better luck next time 😀

Kthxbai

Honest to god I am partially okay, I really needed the ****ing W I am ****ED debt wise.
Should have paid off all of my loans first thing so I atleast can relax for the rest of my life but NO I am a dumb ****ing degenerate.

Why Cant ****ing AQ v AJ Hold WHY JESUS WHY!?!?
WHY CANT A5 V K7 ****ING HOLD WHY ALLAH WHY!?!?!

Now I am in bed absolutely devastated.
Going out with M on Wednesday and I did the misstake of telling her I won like $4k and she thinks I am rich now so we will be taking a uber to the party and back, happily i dont need to buy her drinks because she lowkey rich but STILL WHY AM I SO ****ING DUMB AND DEGENERATE!?!?!?

Took my sleeping meds, tomorrow is a new ****ing day and there are new opportunities.
Everything will somehow be fine, ofc they ****ing will I am a hustler and a grinder I make things work out.

Man gonna be honest, I dont have to include this part but I am gonna keep be honest I feel my left ear tearing up because of this situation I am in.
I am looking for no sympathy, I really dont.
But this is just beyond ****ed up, less than a week ago I was a king upon my throne now I am a poor beggar once again.

Okay KTHXBAI for now, thanks for reading and thanks for posting (everyone except some pieces of **** that can die in a grease fire).

Man like I need a hug or something.
M will give me lots of hugs on Wednesday, but I will never admit that I degened away all my money.
Wish I never did that, wish I just could have kept my cool. Not play live for a third of my roll in PLO getting it in with a stupid dominated wrap on a flush draw board
Not going to play live after being out raving.
Not tilting away half my roll on blackjack.
So many nots man, so many nots...

I feel atrocious, I play the same song on repeat and I feel melancholical deluxe.

Waiting for my sleeping meds to knock me out, but like I am physically hurting and in mental anguish because of my situation it literally ****ing hurts and I can feel a lump in my throat.

I am on heavy meds that **** my emotions up, otherwise I would honestly shed a tear or two because of the sheer ****ed upness of this situation that I have buried myself in.

Kthxbai now again, KTHXBi

So your plan is to live with your parents forever?

Soilwork?

Until I get Married, yes.
Thats the culture I am from, its no weird thing.

No a Swedish rap song.

I cant sleep, took 6 5mg melatonin and still not getting shut off.
I vart through agonizing excrutiating pain, and some kind of bliss.
The final hand, the river keeps replaying in my head. If I just held, If I just ****ing held I would have 22-23bb and work my way through it.
A min cash would be huge, I would have enough money to party with M tomorrow and maybe even some to grind with.

My God, I Signed up for this I am made out of titanium. I am a man, and I take it on the chin and keep on walking forward like a man.
Nothing can stop me, I am unstoppable.

Is it a courtship prerequisite for you that the woman makes enough to support you or would you eventually find full time employment?

Lay it on me

I will eventually work full time.
Atm I am on very heavy meds that make me fatigued and depressed that make me barely hang in there. I will make 1.5-2x of my women in the future when I get my teachers licence.

https://youtu.be/2sqngNTNaZI?si=WWQrVTz3... here is the song bro

Just borrow money off of M after u give her the D bro.

I would rather shoot myself straight in the head.

slept like 1 hour.
got a small stake from my father, atm in a $3.3 satty to the $33 pacific rim special 😀
ran up the rest in PLO and got $11 bucks to my name,
kthxbai.

33 is a fold utg. The rake is atrocious in most live games which makes it smarter to play a tighter range.

Your basically never ahead on the turn, usually not a fan of folding a set but you can probably fold it assuming it's your run of the mill live opponent. What do you beat? He shouldn't have overpairs, maybe 65 but that's about it and not all players are shoving that.

Since when is any pocket pair a fold 200bb deep? Sure I got rekt, there is a FD and Straight draws on board Dude doesnt have to have a set but its just that this time he does have it.