A raging fish on a heater
Intro,
A memoir of a degen:
I've always loved to gamble, and I have done so since I was a kid. It did not start of very w
What’s the most likely outcome of bbz playing $50 tournaments off a $100 bankroll.
Ask him yourself, but you probably don’t need too.
Are you better than bbz?
Logic leads where;
I sattied in for $5.50.
Like a boss.
Lifetime im up plenty $$$ in satties.
Sattied into the EPT main event in Barcelona at the ripe age of 20 back in 2016
HYPEEÉEEEEEEEEEER $82 lol.
inside joke.
back in the days when FPP was still a thing my busto friend was grinding FPP satties to the sunday storm.
and he managed to win a seat lol and we were in the Skype with another friend and he when he sattied he yelled on the top of his lungs SUUUUUNDAYYY STOOOOOOORM.
none the less he didnt cash jack **** and was total busto.
with that said I sattied in to thee $82 hyper spider or whatever its called starting in 14 minutes.
been working today.
barely any fatigue, anxiety - none. great wins.
played some live cash and won a 100 bucks which i used to hop in to a 100 buck live mtt.
didnt manage to cash, busted TT vs 52o all in pre lol. no stress, the people were freaking out but I just tapped the table and said nice hand no hard feelings at all lol.
lets ****ing GO shall we not?
played live today.
first i won $300 which i kept $150 from.
took a break.
came back and managed to lose my whole winnings and like 50 bucks more.
got 50 bucks out in cash and bought blow (lol).
so now i got resources but i got no money on my card to play atm.
atm all we got is the mighty $1.65 bounty builder and the $4.40 bounty builder, that's my hope - lol.
lets ****ing go shall we not?
busto asf.
had 40 bucks to my name today, played PLO zoom and bought a chicken poke bowl.
busted on zoom and now i am hear and behold really ****ing busto.
got at least 500 bucks in debt to pay by the end of the month and got no money to pay with.
have been ein bisschen kalt on the live felt as well, gii AK vs AA for no real big sum but 650 buck pot (i had ak lol).
man its rough but atleast i am OK physically and mentally.
no anxiety today and no real fatigue.
Maybe I've missed the reason but wouldn't it be better to get a job at this point ?
Poker doesn't work when you play to chase money you need
Maybe I've missed the reason but wouldn't it be better to get a job at this point ?
Poker doesn't work when you play to chase money you need
I didnt work for 2 whole years during which I didnt even play poker aswell.
This year I started working and grinding again.
I do work and I take pride in my work.
Worked today 4.5 hours. Went to the gym.
But no live poker since Ive lost the past three sessions and didnt get the green light today to play.
Played some miserable poker online.
Lost like 30 bucks on plo zoom and a couple of bucks in sattelites.
No dice.
Tomorrow is a new day!
worked today from 8:30 to 13:05.
went ok.
went to the gym after work and did a ok session.
asked my backer if i got the green light for tonight and got the red lights for today and tomorrow, so no live poker until eventually monday...
fml i don't know what to do with my life tomorrow and tonight.
got a mini session atm satted into the big $44 and 17/264 in the big $4.4, so i hope i bink and then go to the club with cash like a baller
fml fml fml lets ****ing go shall we not?
yea man it sucks that i didn't get to play live this weekend where i needed it the most to pay my ****ing bills...
atm awaiting answer from a buddy to loan like 20 bucks to kick of something...
fml fml fml.
Had 115 bucks on Stars.
Burnt half of It on 10NL PLO Zoom.
The rest also burnt.
Busto asf fml
the busto journals continuing.
got 20 bucks from my mom to eat for which i not so quickly deposited and put all in on a 11 dollar satellite to the 215 stackosaurus.
busted aq vs kj for a 45bb pot :( the remaining bucks i burnt on 10nl plo zoom.
got a red light for probably the whole week from my backer swell which ****ING SUCKS. i ****ing need it the most right now....
well that was it kthxbai.
got the greeen light for playing one dollar small blind one dollar big blind today. won 70 bucks which i kept 50 bucks.
depossited on stars and rn i got the 109 dollar cool down with 30bb.
lets ****ing go????
live sweat utg opens we utg+1 we got QQ and 20bb btn calls of 10bb we see aTT and see a QT2A6 runout wood wood we get a bounty and some chips 😃
Busted 78s vs KQ runour was 9TXxxJ
Crap.
Got 28 bucks left to my name.
Will probably get the green light today for playing live which is good!
Im in the verge.
Last live session today.
If i bust im ****ed
500 bucks in makeup, and got like 2k usd in debt which ****ing sucks.
life ****ing sucks on so many planes..
a couple of weeks ago i was ballin (in my own standards) but now i am a ****ing loser.
fml fml fml fml fml
If that's your financial situation why are you using a $50 roll to try satellite a $109 cool down, turbo and pko variance even before having to actually satellite in before.
This recipe will never ever work it is not possible, just ask for more hours at your job and knuckle down working as much as possible for a while, it will help you better understand the value of money for next time
If that's your financial situation why are you using a $50 roll to try satellite a $109 cool down, turbo and pko variance even before having to actually satellite in before.
This recipe will never ever work it is not possible, just ask for more hours at your job and knuckle down working as much as possible for a while, it will help you better understand the value of money for next time
working at a school so i got about 8 days left of work for this semester....
regarding BRM that's the way i roll on a small roll, get big or die trying T_T
been asking all my friends for loans with mixed success.
now i know who are my true brothers and who are not tbh...
ive loaned out my final pennies to friends because that's how i am wired.
but my friend who makes 10k usd a year won't even send me 10 bucks, certified piece of ****.
as we are speaking (or writing) i am waiting for a 25 buck loan from a brother who himself is broke idk how he is going to fix money for me but he will.
got 12 bucks to my name so i registered a 11 buck satt to the stackosaurus 215 bucker.
this was the mtt i got 2nd in like 2.5 months ago so lets hope for another strike......
lol
How about start from NL2?
been asking all my friends for loans with mixed success.
now i know who are my true brothers and who are not tbh...
ive loaned out my final pennies to friends because that's how i am wired.
but my friend who makes 10k usd a year won't even send me 10 bucks, certified piece of ****.
as we are speaking (or writing) i am waiting for a 25 buck loan from a brother who himself is broke idk how he is going to fix money for me but he will.
Your true friends are the ones who say no to loaning you money to gamble with...
